Frozen Glacier | Gruvia

16. Regret | part 1

Juvia's P.O.V
I can't believe it's me and gray-sama's last day here in Spain. We have been here for 3 weeks and I wish that we could be here forever, it's amazing! but obviously we have to go back because of Gray-sama's work but maybe we could move here....

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I pulled my knickers up and sat on the toilet seat. I have never been so anxious in my whole entire life... what if I am pregnant? What would Gray-sama say about it or think? Will he be angry? ..

I flicked the tester in my hand a few times and breathed in, then exhaled heavily. This is it.
I looked at the stick and two lines appear.

"I-I'm pregnant!" I was on the brink of tears. I wasn't sure if this was a good thing or a bad thing though. I've always wanted children, but gray-sama doesn't want children. However, the night I lost my virginity i remember him saying that we will start at one, so maybe he does? but- This is all too much!

I left the bathroom and walked back to the room with the pregnany test behind my back, "G-gray-sama..."
He was on his phone, but as soon as he heard me he glared at me, "Yeah?"

"I have something to tell you" I looked at him, but I could feel my eyes watering so I looked to my feet.
"Juvia? what is it?"

Gray P.O.V
"You oka-"

"I'm pregnant" she pulled a pregnancy tester from behind her back and waved it about.

I looked at her but my eyes subconsciously moved to her stomach, "You're going to abort it, right? or put it up for adoption"

"Gray-sama? are you joking?" she laughed awkwardly.

"No..." I replied bluntly

"But the other night.. the other night you said that we'd start off with one" she said quietly as she lowered her head.

"Yeah, but you know I was just saying that as I was... you know.. " I could feel my face heat up, but in comparison, Juvia looked pale.

"Juvia is not going to get rid of her baby!" She yelled and tears started to stream down her face.

"J-juvia.." I was going to get up to go to her but before I could she exploded. For the number of years that I have been with Juvia, she has never yelled like this before....

"W-why doesn't gray-sama not want a baby? GRAY-SAMA! THIS IS ALL JUVIA EVER WANTED AND ALL YOU SEEM TO THINK ABOUT IS YOURSELF! WHAT ABOUT WHAT I WANT? I'VE ALWAYS WANTED A CHILD AND NOW THAT IM PREGENANT, YOURE SO QUICK TO GET RID OF IT... WHY?????!" She fell to her knees, both hands to her face and sobbed.

"Juvia?" I said in a low voice. I hate seeing her cry, and this is the very last thing I ever wanted to make her do but ...... Ugh for fuck sake!

I hopped off the bed and crouched down in front of her, "Look, I do want to have a child, but I don't want one right now.. You know how dangerous my job is, you've even been hurt.. so if I can't even protect you how would I be able to prote-

"Stop." she moved her hands away revealing her swollen, red eyes. "Why do you keep forgetting about Juvia? I too have to and will protect my child. Don't think that it all lies upon you as it doesn't. I know your job is dangerous, Gray-sama, but ..."

"But?" I stared at her, though she failed to make eye contact with me.
she then stood herself up slowly, flipped her hair over and smiled weakly at me.
"I'm going to go for a-" I grabbed her wrist, "No,you're not. You're not going anywhere until we sort this out"

"Gray-sama..."

"Juvia!" I glared right into her eyes, "You're staying."

"Okay, okay ~" She walked towards the bed side and sat on the edge, and I sat beside her. My eyes for some odd reason couldn't stop looking at her stomach; in there... is a child.. our child..

I ruffled my hair and moved out of my eyes, "Uh .. you know that this will be a big step for us right?"

"Yes!" Her eyes widen and she placed her hands ontop of mine, "Gray-sama I really want a child so if yoh don't then.."
"Then? what will you do Juvia?" I raised an eyebrow at her and glared in her way.
"I-I... don't know, but I will keep the baby and if you disapprove.... I-I do not care. I've wanted this for a long time-"

I let out a loud sigh, "Have you not been listening to anything that I've fucking said? I know you want to have this child, so do fucking I, but my job is also apart of my life. It's dangerous and I do not want my... our child to get harmed!" I could feel my grip on her hand tighten.
I'd hate for juvia to get hurt, and she already has and even to this day I feel guilty. I've lost so many people in this industry; Ur, Ultear and Dad and I still and will never fully recover from that. So fuck knows how I'd feel if this child were to get hurt...

"Juvia all you're thinking about is what you want.. about yourself! If you were really thinking about our child you'd know what's best-"

Then, she raised her hand and slapped my left cheek. Causing it to sting and I'm sure her hand print was red and as visible as ever.
"The fuck?"
Almost in an instant, I raised my hand and went to sla-
I stopped myself. What the fuck am I doing. All thils talk about me not wanting Juvia or this kid to get hurt amd here I am about to hit her.

"G-gray...sama?" Her eyes were closed, a droplet seeped its way through her lashes and rolled down her cheek carefully.

"Juvia.. I'm so sor-"

"Gray-sama hates me!"

"What!" I shouted.
She ran out the door, slammed it, while herself was weeping and sobbing uncontrollably.

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Part 2 will probably come out tomorrow or the day after. Hope you enjoy reading, my lovelies!❤

-lushie