I'm not a suicidal person.
I've never been.
Two nights ago I caught myself thinking lightly about slitting my wrist when I had a fight with my brother.
I came to realize that I always think about death when I fight with my family.
My brother once pointed out that I tend to victimize myself but I don't think so,
He says I base my personality off of the tv characters I watch daily but I don't think so,
I'm not in denial, really I'm not.
I just have a certain way of thinking that may seem inhuman to others and what I've come to comprehend is that no one knows this,
No one really knows what's going on in my head.
So I repeat I am not suicidal, I just like to feel dead sometimes because then I wouldn't have to feel anything,
To those who think the world revolves around them, I used to be one of you.
