Juho's Desire

Chapter 4

I woke to the sounds of birds singing cheerfully through a window. Soft light shown dimly into the room reflecting off the walls and resting on the empty pillow next to me. I blinked twice, my eyes adjusting to the light,as I sat up an looked around the cold quiet room. I winced instantly as my body rejected my notion to move and i rubbed lightly at the aches coming from my back. My mind flashed back to the happenings of yesterday and I fluhlshed at the images playing through my head. Did I really let him do that? I couldn't have. And how could I have liked it so much? I mean I know I was a virgin but I am not gay! There was no way! He must have put something in the food! The pictures flashed by again and as each one unfolded I felt myself wanting to become ill. I was simply overwhelmed that is all. I will not be so off guard next time. I will fight him off. I was getting frustrated and wanted to escape. I climbed out of bed and stood once again naked in front of the mirror. I could see bruises on parts of my body and touched them lightly feeling the dull ache. That bastard even left marks. I pulled on the shirt and pants thatbwere neatly folded on the chair and moved to the closed door. Would it even be unlocked? I tried the door handle and was surprised that it opened with quite some ease. I held my breathe and listened outside but could not hear any sounds beyond. I slowly opened the door all the way and peered out into the brightly lit halls. I had no idea what time it was save for it was dsylight, but there was not a soul around. No eunwoo greeted me this time. Not even a passing servant or even a mouse passed by my door. Though this place was too nice to have mice, I thought randomly as i looked back and forth down the hall. I remembered that going right and then left took me to the kitchen. I shuddered again at the memories there. I didn't want to go back there anytime soon. I remembered passing a grand staircase leading up and a set of double doors. They looked as good a front door as any. I knodded my head and made my way down the corridor, careful not to make any noise as I moved towards my goal of freedom. I could see the doors in sight. I made a last sprint towards them and shoved them hard. They opened silently and I rushed into the open air.. or so I had thought. I opened my eyes and looked around at what looked like what I could only describe as a library. Massive walls filled with books littered every row. I stepped further in and twirled around. Wow, was all I could muster. The shelves went on forever in both veritcal and horizontal.
There had to be one of every book in the world in here! I walked over to a shelf and skimmed the volumes. There were so many titles, from old poetry and song lyrics to fiction and non fiction. Books on science, books on folklore even cookbooks were shoved into the mix. I pulled out a single book and flipped through the pages. The words jumped out at me, springing off the page and into my mind.
I don't remember when I had learned to read, that was another part of that history I had misplaced somewhere, but I was happy I could. Books were one of the few luxuries as a child. The keepers would bring in tattered old books with torn and missing pages, and I would often read to the other kids, spinning stories snd playing out fantasies from the pages I read. For a moment I was able to escape the dark lonely confines and be free. I could go anywhere and be anyone.
I flipped through the book reading each passage as I moved to sit in one of the oversized chairs. My mind barely registered the fact that I was still wanting to escape, but I had already become engrossed in the pages.
I sat there reading for over an hour, not realizing the passing of time. A noise from the door way pulled me from my fantasy world. I looked up and saw Juho poised there, his fingers rasping on the door. My eyes widened at his appearance. He was dressed in a formal suit, black and sleak, a thin black tie hung loosely from around his neck. He held a half empty glass in his hand, swirling it around with just three fingers. He held a captive smirk on his face as he watched me. I slammed the book closed and clutched it to my chest, placing it like a barrier between me and the beast before me. I pushed myself back into the chair and slid my knees up to my chest. To anyone around I would have probably looked like a child who had just gotten caught, but to Zuho, I looked like a piece of meat ready for eating, this I was sure of.
He moved his way over to the chair and stooped down to meet my gaze. I fought back trying not to stare directly into his eyes but I was still as powerless as before, being around him daily did nothing to help make me more immune. His eyes smoldered slightly and my breathe hitched. I could feel myself starting to heat up, my body tingling as I remembered his touch. Stop it, I begged myself, but it didnt listen anymore than my mind did. I could feel myself letting go of the book, it slid effortlessly out of my hands and towards the ground, being saved by his hands before it could completely touch the floor. He broke his gaze with mine, giving me a moment to breathe again, and looked down at the book he so effortlessly retrieved. He skimmed through a few pages before clapping the book shut, the sound echoing off the walls in a deadening thump. He smiled and handed the book back to me.
"Its a very good choice, that book is a good read. Then again most these books are." he gestured to the air as he looked down at me again, his eyes smiling with him. I made no effort to reach out for the book as I stared back, frozen in place yet again by his gaze.
"Do you like this library? Its one of my general libraries. I keep most of my extra books in here.  Newer writings to about thirty years old mainly. Its not a complete collection but its a good start."
I gawked at his words as he looked around the room, listing off its attributes. His blatant bragging was actually starting to piss me off a little bit. I sat up in the chair and made an attempt to stand up. I could feel his eyes on me again as I moved towards the door.
"Did you want to take the book with you? You didn't finish reading it after all. It would be a shame if you didn't get to finish the story." I closed my eyes and kept moving towards the door, but met an impenetrable wall instead. My hands reached out to touch a soft yet firm mass and I opened my eyes to be greeted with a set of broad shoulders and strong arms, one which was still holding the book.
"Where are you going?" I looked up and his gaze once again bore into mine. I stepped back slightly and tripped, my arms flying out. Zuho grabbed me and pulled me into his arms, our faces moving within inches of each other. His breath expelled out, its warmth spreading onto my neck and making me shiver slightly. I swallowed as goosebumps rose on my skin. I could not think, I could not breathe, I could only feel my heart pounding in my chest so hard that I was certain he could hear it plain as day.
Zuho slid his hand down my back, causing a line of electricity followed by heat in its wake. He slowly stood me back up his eyes never leaving mine, his hands holding onto me tightly as though if he let me go I would fall apart, which at the moment may have been more true than you would have thought. I could not handle his closeness, I was losing myself, my thoughts were empty, my body was responding on its own, I couldn't get my head around it. I wanted him to keep touching me. His hands on my body felt good, the way his breath whispered across my skin made me want to beg for more. What was happening to me? I was afraid of what I was becoming. Was this one of the abilities of a vampire? It had to be. There was no way I would be feeling these urges with just anyone. I had never even looked twice at a guy let alone had sexual thoughts about them. Of course I had not really had sexual thoughts about a woman either, so I guess you could say I was uncharted in that territory as well.
I looked up at Zuho, his face placed so close to mine, and I bit my lip. He had very nice features. His eyes were deepset and usually golden in color, they sparkled when he smiled. His nose was not very broad but set well with his features. He had high cheekbones that pressed out when he smiled as well, making him look innocent. His lips were full and a slight shade darker than his face, plump and moist and from what I remembered very soft.
I had a sudeen urge to kiss his lips, wanting to taste and see if they were as sweet as they were yesterday. I turned my head away before I acted on that impulse. I needed tonget out of the room fast. I needed to clear my head to think.
Zuho steadied me with his arms and held me almost craddled in his embrace. He spun me around pulling me to his chest and holding me close.
"Please be careful Tae. I don't want to see you get hurt again. I would be absolutely devastated if something were to happen to you. Please be more careful." His words brushed across my ears and sent another shiver through me. I had to use every bit of willpower I had to not crumple to the floor as his voice vibrated against my ear, pulling the strength from my legs. I closed my eyes and mustered up the energy to push his arms off. I spun around to face him.
"Dont... DO.. that.." I breathed my voice sounding hoarse and dry.
Zuho knitted his brows. a look of concern on his face.
"What did I do?" he asked sounding a little hurt.
"You keep.. looking at me and talking in my ear and TOUCHING me... I can't think when you do that.. Stop usimg your vampire powers or whatever to make me submit to you." My breathing was ragged as I stoodnthere my arms outstretched as though I could hold him off. Zuho smiled and then began laughing, his body shaking as held his hand to his mouth trying to stifle it.
"Vampire powers? Is that what you were thinking? That I was making you do these things? Tae hun. I don't have that ability and even if I did Inwould not be so heartless as to use it to get what I wanted. Especially not on you. I didn't force you or drug you or make you do anything"
"Thats bullshit! I know your doing something to me. There is no way that Inwould be interested in a disgusting vampire faggot like you! I shudder at the thought of your dirty hands on my body. I want to throw myself off a cliff just at the thought! There is no way I would be interested in you... no way." I could feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes and I pushed them back down. There was no way he would see me cry here. I would not subject myself to that humiliation in front of a lowely vampire.
I could see his eyes changing from a smoldering yellow to a tinge of red. His smile disappeared and was replaced by a slight scowl.
"I am going to find a way to get out of here. I will. And then I will be free from you and your deceitful gaze. I don't care what I have to do!"
Zuhos hands suddenly shot out and grabbed me, slamming me with some force against the wall behind him. I felt the wind leave my body and I instinctively fought back to no avail.
"And were will you go Tae? Huh? You have no home to go back to, no family, no life beyond me who bought you. You have no money and no assets. Beyond these walls you are nothing! Don't forget it was this faggot vampire as you say that saved your life twice now. The other bidders would have had you as a feast by now. You would have either been killed or turned. Both in a very painful manor I assure you. Now I am a patient man. But do not presume I am nice. You are precious to me so I have a pension to let you get away with alot of things. But I am also a cruel man, and for every trespass I forgive I will take something in return. Remember I bought you to be my lover. I will not take no for an answer. And while your feeble mind fights it your body knows very well its place. Listen to your body Tae, it knows what it wants." Zuho slid his lips onto mine drinking deep from my body. His arm slid around to pull me in closer as his kiss turned more eager, his tongue intruding into my mouth with ease. I whimpered quietly as my body responded. I could feel my legs going weak and my body tingling from his hands roaming across my back. He broke away and I protested again leaning in to chase his mouth. My head swam and I wanted more. My body didn't want him to stop even though my mind was still screaming about it.
I stumbled forward as he moved out the door. It took me a minute to get my bearings and turn after him. He turned back to me and grabbed my hand, placing the book within it.
"Stay and read as long as you want. When you are done, come to my bedroom and we shall finish this conversation. Just dont stay up too late I am not a patient man and I don't like to be kept waiting." He leaned in and kissed my lips again before walking down the hallway. I stood there, my body vibrating , staring after him, the book still held out in my hand. What? How could he just stop like that? My body ached for more. I dropped the book and took off down the hall after him. I wanted to see... I needed to know...