(Authors note)
What's going on with Niall? Will we find out? Who knows we just might!
(Niall's p.o.v)
I wake up startled from the dream to find Harry still alseep beside me with his arm draped across my chest. The dream felt so real, like it was actually happening. "Why would I dream about my best mate like that? Ive never had a wet dream before and definately not about a guy!" I slide out from underneath his arm and tiptoe out of the room. Its still early in the morning and as usual everyones asleep. I go into Harrys bathroom and shower the filth off of me. All I can think about while in the shower is the dream. Its seems like I can still feel the warmth on my lips and the heated breath on my neck and the pleasure I felt tingling all over my body. I liked it and I know I did, just like I had liked mine and Harrys kiss. All at once a wave of emotion fills me. I sit on the floor of the shower and bury my head inbetween my knees. "Niall what are you thinking? You liked it, didnt you? Your not gay Niall! So why would you like it. I did like it, more than any girl Ive been with." I kept asking myself questions over and over and kept answering them over and over until I busted into tears. "What the fuck Niall, your sick. Your so sick. Your thinking of your best friend like this and enjoying it. Your fucking sick." Ive been in the shower so long my fingers are pruning. I struggle to get myself up and turn off the water, I get out and rap myself in a big fluffy towel. Im still in my thoughts, still crying and not focusing at all. Thats when I bump into something and stumble backwards.
"Niall, you okay? Im sorry." Liam ask.
"Uhm, yeah Its my fault.... Sorry." I tell Liam.
"Ni have you been crying?"
"N-no, Im fine."
"Quit lying Ni, what the fuck is wrong!"
"Its nothing!"
Liam grabs me and pulls me to the couch. "Your not getting dressed or moving from this couch until you tell me!"
"I-I had a dream and Im so confused because its about..... Harry. Rememer the dare?" Liam nods. "Well I-I, uhm.... I LIKED IT OKAY. There I told you and you think Im a sick freak." I bury my head in a pillow in shame.
"Ni I dont think your sick, but that still doesnt explain the dream you said you had."
"It was Harry! We was kissing and he was naked and we were grinding and I liked it. Why? Why would I dream that?"
"Ni don't cry! It's okay, there is nothing wrong with being gay."
"I'm ,not.... Gay. Am I? Ive never thought about a guy like this."
"Well you haven't thought about liking a guy. That doesn't mean you wont. Obviously you like Harry who IS a guy."
"So what your saying is that Im gay?"
"Well I guess. I think you should look into it. Its worth a shot, you need to get your head cleared."
"How do I find out though?"
"Well... Uhm, I think you should go to your room get on Harrys labtop and try to watch some porn. Uhmmm... Gay porn. Okay?"
"What if I like it?"
"Then we can talk about this some more, now go."
(Authors note)
Is Niall gay or nah? Hmmmm?
Thanks for reading my lovely 1D addicts! 😚
