Life as it is

How could this happe- oh

Q's POV

What. The. Actual. Fuck. I have no, I'm lost at words. I, how did this happen? This is insane. No WAY is this real. The test must've been wrong. I mean..... there were signs, looking back at it it's actually obvious. Jesus, what am I going to do?
"Who else knows?" I weakly asked. Dr. Holland straightened up, back into doctor mode and replied, "Just you, me, and nurse Carla. It's up to you on who else gets to know. I can bring up Mr. Vulcano, he's been here all night waiting."

Wow, Sally boy doesn't do stuff  like that. "Uh, sure. And thank you Anthony, for telling me I mean." As soon as the doctor left I put on my regular clothes again. These hospitals gowns give me bad flashbacks. Sal came in as soon as I had my boots on.
"Ohnygodareyouokaywhathappened-" I interrupted him "Woah woah buddy calm down." Sal took a deep breath in and said, "Are you okay?" I did a cringe like face. "Sit down, I have to share something with you."
Sal cautiously sat down. "Sally, remember the conversation we had years ago, the very serious one that would've changed everything if the one thing I badly did DID indeed be true?" I looked at my dear friend and he nodded and confusingly tilted his head, indicating he knew what I was talking about but had no idea how it was irrelevant to what I was trying to say.
"Well, it happened. What I had feared came to life."
Sals jaw dropped. "Are you sure?" I nodded, rubbing my temples. "You're the only one who, and only one who will until I share it, knows." He nodded. Sal came to hug me, clearly seeing I was about to cry. "What am I going to do," I thought aloud. "On one hand the guys and everyone else should have a right to know. On another, I could just hide it until I HAVE to talk about it."

Sal pulled apart from our hug and sat up on the hospital bed. "This is all up to you, Bri, I want to help you, but it's not my place to say it. For now, don't think about it. Comon, Mia's out in the waiting room, she hasn't left since yesterday." I nodded and with Sal went out. As soon as I entered the waiting room I saw her; Mia, by the window, her fingers tapping the chair very fast and mumbling to herself. I decided to make the best of things.
"Excuse me?" I impersonated, "Someone looks like they need to go home..."
"For the last fucking tim-"
"Watch your language." I said. Mia quickly turned around and her face light up. She stood and hugged me tightly. I chuckled and quickly commented, "Hey MiaBia, how are you?" You couldn't see it but Mia was crying, she nodded and I put my arm around her neck and we all left the hospital, Sal driving us home.

~flash forward to an hour later~

We got settled in. Sal dropped us off and left, which meant we were able to see the cats right away. I smiled as I sat, all 4 kitties coming to sleep around me. Mia went to go change into her pajamas. I immediately got a text from Drea.
Andrea: omg Sal just called me are you okay? What did the doctors tell you? How is-
I stopped reading after that. Andreas nice and all, but during these past few weeks I've been getting a little more distant with her and closer to M. Nothing personal, just ugh I dunno.

Mia came from her room. She looked.... huh, I have never seen that expression from m- stop.
"We need to talk." She seriously said.

Mia's POV

"Okay, Joe has filled me in on what happened. Why didn't you tell me before? We were supposed to know each other more, and I have to hear from your best friend that this has happened already?!" I took a breath and calmed down. "I'm not mad, just disappointed. But I'm not here to talk about that, I'm here to talk about the questions I still have. Since you are still a little sick I'll be giving you some time, but don't think I've forgotten it." Q nodded and gave me a hug. I, being annoyed, didn't really return one back. Instead, I pulled back and said "I'll be in my room. They guys'll be over tonight, so I ordered pizza for y'all. The next two days you'll be having a shoot and a TESD to record. I'll be attending both. And on Friday the guys, Bessy n kids, and Andrea will be over. Which is the same day I want my answers."
I turned to leave to "my" room. As I closed the door I fell to the ground. I can't express any love towards Q anymore, what if this happens again but worse? What if he dies? I don't want to love someone just for it to be ripped out of my life. That's happened already. I started to cry. Why do I even try anymore? What's the whole point of this miserable game called life?

I'm going to kill myself.

After I get my answers from Q on Friday... I'll do it. I'll either kill myself or run away. I have to. I don't want to feel any pain. If I die, the pain will go away.  If I run away, I can make a new life. Be a new person. Forget who I am and be someone different. The pain will fade it's self.
Coal came to me as I sat on the bed. I didn't quite look at this house as before: this was a guest room, obviously, considering the fact that everything looked barely used. Whatever. Q's house seemed like the lonely type. No signs that a women lived here. This whole house smelled of him; whiskey and cat litter.

I decided to be a nice person, and peeled out to see what Q was doing. I saw his body sagged and freaked out for a minute, before realizing he had fallen asleep. Ok, that's fine. I'll make myself dinner I suppose.

What a wonderful world right now ain't it.
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A/N: Hi. So, I'm kinda of a writers block. So, the next chapter is just going to be a little skip to the dinner with everybody, shit will go down.
Thanks for staying with me.
Word count: 1088