Gone💔

1///«her»

Ashanti P.O.V

He saw beauty in everyone but you couldn't see beauty in me...who could see beauty in a girl that has depression and anxiety...but he did he tried to fix me it didn't work out......

What if I just want end it all I thought to myself looking down at the xans...what do I have that I should stay for my abusive mother and my fuck up dad then he popped in my head jahseh the one guy I loved but I knew he never loved me back.

I ran to my bed stand and take out my note book....

I didn't do this because I wanted attention...I did this cuz I wanted to...
Jah I wanted to say I love you more the a friend

I pop a xan for death not attention

I love you jahseh onfroy

I start the bath tub I get in with the xans I call jahseh one more time. I don't talk I cry he knows something wrong I hang up and take the xans.... I start to cut myself and I started to feel my heart race and my vision getting blurry then I hear jah in the house.... he the last thing i saw

Jahseh P.O.V

I was working on a song when a get a call from Ash....I pick up 'hello' I said all I heard was the girl I loved crying 'Ash are u ok??' No answer and the line goes quite... I took off running to my car and get in..she only lives 2 blocks away... I pull up to her house... her  door is lock.

I get the key from under the rug the first thing I hear is the water running... I ran up to her room is lock...
I knocked that shit down I see the love of my life in the bath with water mixed with blood and her eyes blood shot trying to slip out of reality...

' No no no ash' I say pulling her motionless body out of the bloody water...' No ash not like this Ashanti wake up please' I say yelling and crying I call 911

'Hello' a young woman said

'my best friend committed suicide please

hurry'

'Whats the address sir'

'120 main '

'does she have pulse'

'yes it very slow'

That's when I hear the police and everything else was a blur I found a note I read it

I didn't do this because I wanted attention...I did this cuz I wanted to...
Jah I wanted to say I love you more the a friend

I pop a xan for death not for attention

I love you jahseh onfroy

I drop to my knees and cried then I had a flash back

«Flash back»

'You're a dork' she said laughing
I loved the way she laughed and smiled
'How am I the dork when you're ass can't stop laughing' I said laughing
'Cuz your the one wear a bikini' she said
' oh yea I forgot' I said
' hold on one for the snap' she said
'Noooooo' I say
' yesss jah work it ittt fuck it up' she said recording
«end of flashback»

Anybody that would of meet her would never think she was broken. She always look happy.
But I know the real Ashanti I wished she was really fine and happy that's what I would kill for...

Ashanti P.O.V

I could hear jah yelling at me to wake up I couldn't as much I wanted to I couldn't

I felt this shock on my body I felt warm again but the same time dead I could hear beeps

I hear the doctors saying I was in a coma I had to fight this war but how.

I felt someone hugging me and crying
'Please ash I want you to stay I love u please'
He was hurting he loves me every time I hear his voice the more I feel alive...

Jahseh P.O.V

The doctors said she could hear me this is hurting me more the anything I want to hold her watch movies with her and get fat with her
' ash baby girl I need you I want to hold you
I won't leave you even if they call the police'
I say

'Hey remember the time you came over and Geneva came and ask if we could get back together and u called her guave you was like  jah guave donkey looking ass is here's I say laughing and crying

Ashanti P.O.V

The doctors told him I can hear every word
He says.
He told me he didn't want leave no matter what the he was bring out the guave donkey ass he was laughing I remember that day it was the day jah tried riding a bike down his stairs for the snap and I had to stop him and it was also the day he made a video that I quote was the most likely was to come out anyways  'you suck my dick so good I was like you dirty bitch'
But i also knew he was crying

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~a/n~
I had the hardest time writing this one is cuz he gone two I tried to committee suicide in anyway I can help hit me up if u need to vent  don't hold that stuff in I know what it feels likes please tell someone and think before you do.....I know you think why should I be in a world like this and live in this world cuz sometimes the world is so fucking sticking but there is a little light to see happiness think about what your about to leave behind family friends people who cared don't be selfish u can get thru anything your strong your not weak. And  x was there for for all of us thru words music his funniest moments ..we can get thru this

Love,Marí