I can rest now

I shake but yet still we connect

I can see how he Alway trys to make a move even tho he is nervous. I heard one of is friend saying that Derek likes Karen but he is not sure if Karen feels the same way , my heart just Solent I thought it was going to pop how big it gain; it felt like a sword just run through me and now a breathing problem arise .

My brain just fired up on me like a storm with many questions not sure of how to even answer the first one but this I know it now are never to get him are let him go, so I wrote him a love note trying to be as clear and understanding as possible.

So I start by saying dear Derek, this was not easy for me to say to you face to face so I decided to send it to you on a note, you see am not a perfect girl nor am I a woman as yet and we both have needs and want but this for sure am certain of I am in love with you; tried to wrestle with my self to find out if it was just a crush I have on you,

But the result that came back to me was more than a crush, it  love  am certain about it. I found my self weak when you around are me, I know you don't say much to me but still you can do so much without saying one word.

I don't know if you received dreams about me but for me I can't sleep nor eat because you live in my visions and kissing me in my dreams, I don't mine having you around me it just that I got fed up and bex waking up knowing that it just a dream.

I never knew that I can love someone this way or feel so weak and hopeless for a guy because am always so strong, brave and ful of self confidence but for you my body over heat ,shutdown and restarted again in no second, it feels like you like you are the one controlling my body cause what I say it don't obey.

Don't be scared of my words or me it just that woman in me ,you letting out free. I know that we both are young but never too young to fall in love. I don't want you to think that I don't care. I don't want you to think that I don't want to be near.

I wish you the best if you don't choose me. I wish you found a girl that can love you in the past, present and history. I wish she keep you smiling till your cheers start crying ;Most I wish you all the loves that ever been found.

All I have to give is love
All I have to give is attention
All I have to give is a listening ears
All I have to give is good advice
All I have to give is kisses
All I have to give is a smile
All I have to give is a hug
All I have to give is support
All I have to give is honest friendship
All I have to give is blessings
All I have to give is my word to make you happy
All I have to give is good love making and a image of us, yes a little blessings from God.

I know we both are 15 so young , yes what can we do ?,but love will be our guidance through the tick darkness.

Love me and you will see
Choose me and you will see
Try me and you will know
But don't judge before you know
Feel the water ,seek your needs; take the key open the door and lets explore. Be my Knight and shining armour and rescue me from  this tall disgusting tower

Your not rich so am I but if you love me I can satisfy with that life , for love is richer than gold and silver, make you mine will be my treasure and you as my treasure I will cherish you forever.

So when I handed him this note he was so surprised  even my hand was shaking but he look me in the eyes  and told me it alright and he gave me a big bright smile that just melted my heart to liquid pure water. My day was perfect now for that smile was more than plate filled with sweet food. It was like catching paradise air off guard. I walk away with a little rhyme and a special bet that rise up lyrics, now am about to write a song that will be my number one.