The perks of being without wifi

3. Mixed fellings

Yamaguchi's butt and knee were hurting a bit but in that moment he was sure that his heart was hurting him much more...

He knew this was a moment. A moment where times stops and your mind craves it in it's self. Like the stories our parents or even our grandparents tell us about their childhood or youth.

This was going to be a memory.

Something that only happened once that would become permanent in his mind.

He would never have a moment like this again. Sooner or later Kei would find a girlfriend. A tall, fit, blonde and smart girl, just as perfect as him. And he, the friend, would become a mere acquaintance...

He felt like a vulnerable baby when the tears started to fall from his face to Tsukki's chest.

Felling the water running down his chest Tsukki thought that the crying was because his friend had seriously hurt himself during the fall.

He asked some questions to the other boy who, with a lot of effort, responded between sobs.

"hey...Yams?"

"...yeah?"

"Is it hurting that much? Are you bleeding?"

"O-ohh no... I'm fine." - he said while lowering his sight.

Assuming that the pain reflected in the eyes were from the fall Tsukki grabbed the other male in a awkward bridal-style and lead him to the room in order to check his knee and to look for any more injuries.

Kei held Tadashi's left leg, holding firmly his thigh while cleaning the injury in his knee making a track of small pampered kisses from the knee to the left thigh of Yamaguchi.

"sHIT! Is he that dense!? I'm naked! ...for God's sake! he definitely just think of me as a kid, his friend, and a very pathetic one in fact..."- All of Yamaguchi's heath rose to his face and all he could bring himself to do was push the taller boy away from his body making Tsukki land on the ground with his naked butt and to cover his face in order to prevent the other boy of seeing him at that embarrassing state trying to think of something disgusting to prevent a boner. Being seen naked was embarrassing enough.

"Tsukki~ stop please... I already said I was alright."

Tsukishima got up and turned his back to his friend, hiding his blush from the other. He couldn't believe he let himself lose his calm around Yamaguchi while looking and touching his pale and milky thighs.

He had worked for so long to hide his alpha urges around his bestfriend so that Yamaguchi could feel comfortable around him and the simply sight of his thighs made him kiss the boy. The only thing on his mind right now was probably just how much Yamaguchi might be scared and disgusted of him.

"Fine. Let's just finish the shower and go downstairs. I'm starving." Tsukki said while walking towards the steamy hot shower.

Yamaguchi was blushing hard and avoiding to look into the eyes of the blonde one and quickly went under the shower.

"Oi! I'm really starving so let me wash both of us since I'm faster than you"- the blonde said without waiting for an answer and immediately starting to put shampoo in Yamaguchi's hair.

"Be gentle. Don't scare him again. Don't look conflicted. Win him over again. Be gentle" Tsukki thought while caressing the other's skin.

"o-okay..."

Yamaguchi couldn't stop his loud mind.
"OHMYGOD...His hand are so S O F T! How can he have such delicate hands with all the volleyball practices?! Even my hands have some callus."

Meanwhile Tsukki was being devoured by goosebumps that travelled down his whole body just because of Yamaguchi's soft pants and sounds that escaped his mouth every time that he curled his fingertips in the other's hair and gently pulled it.

He felt them especially strong when Yamaguchi softly moaned.

"Tsukkii...hum...mo-more~"

Before his mind made him even more eager to get a piece of the cute boy, he wrapped a towel around his waist (if only that was enough to hide his massive boner) and another around the other's body, leading them to Yamaguchi's room.

Tsukkishima sat Yamaguchi in the bed and pulled two shirts and boxers from the other's wardrobe.

"Do you mind if I use your clothes Yamaguchi?"

"...it's fine Tsukki"

Yamaguchi thought in how good it would be to sleep with clothes that had Tsukki's smell in future nights.

Tsukkishima started to dress Yamaguchi and if Yamaguchi wasn't lost in his thoughts he would certainly blush a furious red when Tsukki kneeled between his legs with a deep blush covering his face, neck and ears while dressing him with the boxers.

But (unfortunately) he only got back to reality when Tsukki walked to the corner and let the towel slip down through his body to the ground.

He watched Tsukki dry his own hair with his hands and cursed himself for not being with more attention.

As soon as his eyes laid in the other's body, Tsukki had all of his attention.

His blonde wet hair was dripping drops of water and Yamaguchi followed one drop with his eyes.

His long neck, large shoulders, his back muscles, it went around his waist, his round soft butt, long thighs and neverending legs...

Before he could think his body moved next to the other boy and backhugged him, his hands holding tightly into the other's firm stomach.

He felt Tsukki tense up to his touch and with a trembling hand, escape from his embrace.

Always looking away from the other's face, Tsukki said with a dead cold voice.

"...stop."

" I-I'm sorry! I don't know what got to me I was just-"

"STOP!"- he screamed. Tsukki never screams, not with Kageyama or with Hinata, not even with his opponents. Yamaguchi was taken back by that and retreated a couple steps.

"...sorry... I didn't mean to scream at you... But seriously you need to stop. I don't need your pity. Stop pretending you like me if you're going to give me mixed feelings afterwards, okay?! Cause I know you don't really do. I can't be a caring and nice friend to you if you're always trespassing boundaries and making my alpha side appear just so that you can fell outraged and push me away when I try to be closer. I don't need your pity. So I beg you. Please stop..." He said before leaving.

Wait
What?!?!
Yamaguchi never thought his friend would feel that way.

In fact, he always thought that Tsukki only hanged out with him for pity...that he was a burden. Since middle school that it worked like that.

Tsukki always protected him from his bullies, fought whenever someone talked shit about him, always walked him home even though his house was in the opposite direction. He would be the first to know when Tadashi wasn't felling well and would always find a way to return a smile to his face. He always took care of him when his parents weren't home, he could always cheer him up before a serve, he was always there during his breakdowns.
Yamaguchi knew he would always lend him a headphone during day or night, would always ask for his honest opinion about the tracks he loved because Tsukki, his Tsukki, was the only one who truly appreciate his presence and opinion...

And, apparently, he also loved him...

HEEeeyyy. Can this be considered angst?? If not then I'll try harder next chapter ahahaha

Also this is the biggest chapter so far and it gives me mixed feelings lol

-M