(Shizuo x Reader) Crossed Paths

Chapter 10: Ambush

Three months since you last seen Shizuo. You disregarded messaging him back. There was nothing for the first two weeks before he started spamming you little by little. You read the messages but never answered causing you to a depression state. You cooped yourself up in your room, went to work and avoided Shizuo. Work, eat, room, weep and sleep. That's all you did while reading old messages. He begged you to talk to him, to say something even bargained you to come home. Your heart throbbed in response as it yearned for him. He was yours and yours alone. Your lovable oaf. He was too good to be around some like you who's betrayed him. Yet you knew in your heart something needs to happen and meeting him will eventually come.

On your return to Tom's you told him everything. How you felt to what you needed. Tom understood and honestly wished he could help, but he knew you all too well. On the first month, Shizuo tried to barge in and talk to you but you kept yourself hidden under your blanket ignoring him. Tom fought him or at least did his best to block him, but could not deny to keep the love sick puppy away and believed I would help to some extent only to fail in the end. Tom ushered him away after explaining that you are a woman who requires a lot of space. If you thought that kept him away you were wrong, he would sometimes pop up at your work waiting outside for you. You always went through the back to avoid him and make a dash home. You didn't understand why you are doing what you were doing. You wanted to set him free yet at the same time keep him. It was tearing you apart. Your decision has yet to be made, but you made sure your time limit would be when all negotiations here are settled leaving you to be sent back to the USA.

You are so lost you had a sit down with Celty at a park. You tossed some bread crumbs onto the floor as you fed the pigeons. You are left in a daze on an afternoon. The sun gold and setting on the horizon as the skies blend colors as a result. The roar of a near by bike echoes behind you. You paid no mind knowing well who it was. The owner, approaches you and takes a seat with her usual, leather, black outfit. She types you a greeting.

"Hey, nice day out here huh?"

"Hey, and yeah it is. Much more Serene and calm as it's going to get here."

"Definitely." She agrees. The biker types something else. "So, how are things with you and Shizuo? I hear you guys are on break."

"Something like that. I feel like I should break it up." You sadden.

"What? No! You two were so happy. Like the happiest couple ever. Why would you want to destroy all that you've built?" You read her message and begin to cry. Celty becomes warry and pats your back hesitantly before acknowledging it's the right move to comfort you. You wipe away the small tears before they escalate.

"Celty, I betrayed him. I can't ever forgive myself for that. I chose Izaya over him. All because I was afraid for my life. That's his worst freaking enemy. I go up and leave him without talking to him for a plan. He wasn't involved in anything before I made the decision. I ran away like a coward."