Love Is Difficult 💔

Love is so complicated...

Love is oh so difficult... It comes in many ways, love can drive you to the brink of insanity. I have a best friend who went by as Siamese, my sister who will go by as Lulu, a girl named Haley, and a girl who will go by as Sophia.

My first love was, well, different and quite a heartbreaking experience. Her name was Haley. I met her on Instagram, I know yeah not so romantic, moving on, she was my everything, she was always there when I needed her, and she was never a mean person.

She did have a lot of breakups in the past though and we lasted actually a quite awhile. We lasted two years actually, two years of young love. At first, it seemed so perfect and I was happy until something quite upsetting happened..

She started hurting her self and I loved her so much, I decided I hurt myself too. I loved her very much and I never wanted her to do that again. I said, "If we both love each other then..we need to stop doing this, ok?"

Thankfully, we didn't do it for a while. I then heard many people at school started to hurt her and call her names like whore, slut, fatty, and so much more harsh words. She always told me that she's fine when I knew deep down, she was in pain.

I then told her, "Look my dear princess, I'm here for you and whatever they do to you, they can never break your heart from loving me. They can never take the one thing that loves you the most and that's me. I love you so much, no matter what happens." She began to cry. By now, I was so deeply in love that I didn't see what was happening.

She wasn't acting right, she always cried, she had these...personalities.

One day, she told me she was a witch. At first, I didn't believe her but then she cried and told me it was the truth. She gor me this necklace. It was a witch necklace and your most likely thinking, what does that have to do with anything.

Well she said it was to protect me from a witch that wanted to kill me because of my personality or something along those lines. This went on for 1 year until i finally found out that she lied to me, I wasn't mad, I was...disappointed.

And thats when she told me the reason she acts like that is because she has bipolar and she takes medicine because of it. When I heard that my heart broke in a hundred pieces. I tried everything to make her happy, there is not one thing you can say that i didn't do. I was confused and heart broken.

One day i woke up and I went to my phone and I saw I got a text from her.

Haley; I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore

I felt like when she said that my heart broke.That's not actually the first time but this one time,
this time broke my heart. I knew that i couldn't do this anymore. My best friend, Siamese helped me when Haley broke up with me.

~ONE WEEK LATER~

I went on her Instagram bec i wanted to know how she was doing then I see her bio and what I saw shocked me.

"TAKEN ❤"

I was shocked how fast she got over me but then I thought; She broje up with me for someone else..? I began to hate myself and began to harm myself again.

~ONE MONTH LATER~

I started to drink a lot, my family started noticed but they only said. "Just don't do it again." But I didn't listen, I felt like i had to drink to drown all my feelings until my sister, Lulu, caught me. She's not really home often, she's always doing work but this time she wasn't at work