"No!" malapit na ako umiyak pero agad ko tinigil ito.
"Sorry, Miss Marion, but Mr Marion's cancer is back and much stronger--"
"But--"
"Calm down!" hinila agad ako ni Kuya Kai at biglang nagtakeover si Ate Rai.
"Doctor, we'll do everything, just save Jacob! We'll pay for the chemotherapy," I envied Ate Rai's way of being professional when she just wants to cry.
Oo, may stomach cancer si Jacob. We did our best para i-save siya. Ayoko talagang pagusapan ito.
"No... Ate, unnie, Kuya... I don't wanna go on with the chemo." sabi ni Jacob.
Tumingin kami lahat sakanya. "B-but Jacob--you'll d-die..." umiiyak na sabi ko.
"Unnie, I've had enough of these stuff! Respect my wishes... I wanna die peacefully with no pain! It's m-my choice t-to make."
"Jacob, you can't expect us to just do this! Jacob, please... Reconsider."
"You know Kuya, you're just delaying the inevitable, I'm gonna die anyway! I'm just gonna die and my last wish is to let me just live my life... Till it's end. Please, just do this for me!"
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Kahit labog sa kalooban namin, umuwi kami galing sa doctor with Jacob. Alam kong magiging iba ang buhay kung wala siya. At masakit talaga kung mawala siya... Pero--
"Thank you, guys." sabi ni Jacob at agad siyang pumasok sa room niya. Matutulog siguro.
*riiiing*
"Hello?" I sniffed, kasi umiiyak ako dahil sa kondisyon ni Jacob.
(Ate Trishetta, si Daphne po ito... Bakit po kayo umiiyak?)
"Daph... Hindi mo alam na may stomach cancer si Jacob?"
(C-cancer?)
"O-oo..."
(Eh bakit po hindi po siya nagchechemotherapy? H-hindi ko talaga alam Ate... Hindi ko alam, hindi niya ako sinabihan. Hindi ko talaga alam... Ate, gagawain ko lahat para makatulong... Magpart time po ako sa Burger King at ibibigay ang kita ko--)
"Hindi namin kailangan ng pera Daph, pero thank you nalang. Ayaw niya babalik sa chemo. S-stubborn siya eh. Pero buhay niya ito, at kailangan niya ng judgement; siya din naman ang nagdedesisyon... Labog sa kalooban, hindi to namin gusto..."
(Ate, h-hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero ayaw niya sa chemo? Sa pagkabasa ko, the treatments make the disease seem mild. Ate, I give my wishes... Ate, pwede ko ba siyang kausapin?)
Jacob's POV
"Jacob! Daphne's on the phone," sabi ni unnie Trisha nung binuksan niya ang pinto para tingnan ako.
"Okay." I nodded and went to the telephone and answered the phone with my heart pounding. Does she know?
"Daphne?"
(Jacob! Why can't you go to chemo?! It's for your well-being, alright? Alright?)
I slammed down the reciever. I didn't need any sermons for now.
I went back to my room and when to my closet and found a thick black journal. It's my journal since I had cancer. Yes, as gay as that sounds.
"Today got many worthless treatments that got me puking and losing hair. Sh*t, I hate the hospital."
"So I got my first chemo yesterday. Woop-de-doo! -_-"
"So Daphne called me. I just lied saying I had ulcer. It was all good. When will I grow some balls and just tell her I kinda like her?"
"A bouquet of flowers from home huh... Not bad. I'm gettin sick of just seeing freakin white."
"Out of the hospital. Cancer's gone, :-) **first smiley**!"
I sighed and looked at the page in which I wrote a letter for my family. "Love u guys. u were there even when i was weak... Guys I appreciate everything. and when i gone, tell Daphne I like her..."
I took out my pen and wrote a new entry. "Cancer's back but no way will I go through chemo again.. Everyone's against me."
I put it in a chest and locked it. I took a shaky breath. No way will I go through chemo again.
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