Can't you see? Its not the same.

Bloop

Going to my new college was something that wasn't supposed to happen at first, but I couldn't make any choices for myself anymore anyway. I decided for myself that i would put on my happy face like usual and hopefully start over. Going to my classes nothing really stood out to me, it was just guys and girls in a class learning about whatever we needed to learn about right? Through a couple of classes i would get some girls to come up to me and ask for my number, I didn't really want to, but I didn't want to be rude to them so i did it anyway but with each person i would say that i hoped to become friends and most wouldn't answer to that and some would. It was my last class before lunch and it was still the same. At least until i saw a tall guy with brown hair, he was wearing original clothing and his friends were next to him laughing away. I couldn't stop looking at him, and I didn't know why, he was so original yet... so interesting. I saw one of his friends look back at me and he poked the guy i was looking at and whispered something in his ear. He looked back at me and i quickly looked away to avoid eye contact. "Shit. I must've looked like a creep."

As soon as class was over i picked up all my stuff and was ready to go to lunch. Until i was surrounded by the two people that were close to the tall guy. The first one said " listen your nice and all but im not interested" " h-huh?" " don't act like you weren't looking at my looks" " heon don't say it like that" " i-i" " yes i know its hard to be rejected by myself but-." " i wasn't staring at you dumbass!!" I yelled out and then covered my mouth. " sorry, i meant I wasn't looking at you." He was in shock and in confusion. " haha i knew it, but then who were you looking at?" The guy beside me said. I looked over at the guy i was ACTUALLY looking at and pointed him out. He saw me point at him and pointed at himself in confusion also. " me?" " HIM?" The guy called heon said loudly. " yeah, I wasn't looking at you, you are not even my type even if you tried." He seemed furious after i said that and he quickly shut his mouth, which was very entertaining. "Anyway im ji sung, i just moved to this school recently, its nice to meet you," i smiled to them. " well ji sung," the second one spoke " im hae seok, the narcissist is heon woo, and the shy guy that you were staring at is Jin soo." So his name is Jin woo huh? Nice name... " hey since your new would you like to go to lunch with us?" Hae said to me. Jin peaked his head up and walked over. " yeah we would l-love to have you with us." His voice was so smooth and somewhat deep too. It was so cool. I nodded my head and smiled at Jin.

Going to a nearby coffee shop, the four of us were walking along Jin was quiet still and hae and heon were laughing away about a couple of feet in front of us. I look up at him. " so how come you don't talk as much?" " I'm just shy, you know?" It wasn't a good answer for the most part, but at least he would talk to me. From this point I didn't think too much, he was pretty cu- TALL!! He is amazingly tall!! That was probably the first thing i noticed from him, and i was glad the narcissist was the one that let us all meet. I feel like these will be good friends.

We got at the coffee shop and the first thing that I heard was my name being called out from behind...and I knew who it was.. it was so familiar, and i was afraid of that reason, so I turned around hoping it wouldn't be anyone for over there.i looked behind me and the guy I ain't hoping for was right there " ji!!! Hey I knew it was you!!" I ran, without thinking of course I didn't need it,again. Jin called my name but i just ran as fast as possible. Im probably going to have to move again to a different school if more..drama happens.. "shit shit SHIT!!!!" I yelled out as i ran into the nearest place i could find.i know I'll have to apologize to Jin for running off. A guy went up to me and asked " a room for one?" I looked around and noticed that it was a karaoke bar. To better my chances of not being found i took a single room so i could be alone for an hour at most. I payed the room and and sat down. This is so stressing... " i give up god!i giv...i give up" i started crying.. why? Because i was so tired of everything... it wasn't my fault... I didn't know... and I don't want to suffer anymore. " i hate my life so much, just take me god" i whispered and cried more. I layer down on one of the seats and just kept crying out. I heard a knock on the door and said " is my hour up? Ill pay for another one." I wiped my tears and got my wallet and opened the door. Taking out my money and I put itinfron of the guy that had the same clothes as.... I looked up and saw Jin standing there. " um.. are you ok?" I wiped my face and eyes and smiled " yeah i fine i just had to go..." " and come here?" " yeah". It stayed pretty silent for a moment. Why would he come after me? I just met him and i bet he only came because the other guys asked him to. " so what do you want?" " i was worried about you" he said quietly. " why?" " because... were friends right?" He smiled and looked at me. " um.. excuse me? Your time is up. Would you like another hour?" I looked at him and said " no no it's fine,ill be on my way" " oh ok thank you".

We both left the bar and we talked outside for a bit. I realized that time had passed by so fast and that i was hoping there was more time so that i could just talk to him.

" love me when I least deserve it because that's when I really need it"

Quote #1 in the series