Dirty Talks

-five

Dirty Talks

The way he walks, the way he talks, the way he bats his eyes, the way he smiles. Everything about him turns me on. I went to a shrink to tell him about my obsession with Lu Han.

"What are you doing here again? Sabi ko sayo di ba? Last na yung nangyari sa atin dito sa apartment ko? Hindi pwedeng maging tayo."

He is fuming mad at me and I like it. I really like. Gusto ko na galit siya sa akin. Mas natu-turn on ako. Mas nilapitan ko siya at hinapit sa baywang. Sinubukan niyang magpumiglas pero hindi na siya nakawala pa.

"Sehun--- I don't like what we did. Hindi ako pang-one night stand lang. Okay?"

I grinned. I like him frustrated too. I like all the versions of him. I think I'm in love with him... Damn.

"Sino bang nagsabi na one night stand lang tayo? I want you, Lu Han. I want you so bad."

He blushed up to down to his roots and I grinned more. I want to get under his skin para wala na siyang kawala sa akin. I'll be his dead-end.

"Your mom wants you to date a woman."

Iniling ko lang ang ulo ko at pinagtapat ang mga noo namin. I kissed the tip of his nose and smiled at him. Namula na naman ito. Damn... He is making me horny and he doesn't even know it.

"So? I want you. I already broke the promise when I fucked you... so what's stopping me from wanting you?"

Ngumisi ako dahil napansin ko ang pagkunot ng kanyang noo. He is so fucking adorable. I hugged him close to my body. I can smell him more clearly. Sobrang bango niya. Nakaka-addict ang amoy niya.

"Your mom..."

What's with my mom? Wala na naman siyang magagawa dahil si Lu Han ang gusto ko. She can't do anything because I've realized that I only want Lu Han. She'll come to terms with it. Sa ngayon ang gusto ko lang ay nasa kwarto kami ni Lu Han dahil sobrang sabik na ako sa kanya.

"Don't care about her. Ako nga hindi ko siya pinoproblema."

Medyo itinulak niya ako at kinurot niya ang ilong ko. Napangiwi ako dahil doon. Shit! Ang sakit nun ah!

"She's your mom! Tsaka sex lang ata habol mo sa akin eh!"

I shook my head. Yes, she's my mom, and I love her with all my heart, I respect her with all of my beings, but she can't tell me whom to love...

"I love you."

"Oh my God! You didn't just say the magic words! Sehun, nag-sex tayo - yun ang ginawa natin. We met and then we had sex and then I tried to hide from you and you chased me down and then you found me and we had sex again. How can you love me?"

I shrugged my shoulders. One thing I learned in life is that you don't have reasons to fall in love. You don't need to wait for the right time, right place, right moment to be in love. You just have to feel that rapid beatings of your heart and well, contentment. That's when you know that you have fallen in love.

In my case, it took one night for me to find the right person and another night to confirm my feelings for him. And even tho I admit that the sex is good - heavenly good, I still believe that I have fallen in the depths of love with him.

The shrink that I talked to said something about being infatuated because of my addiction with sex, but then who is he to tell me what I feel? Kung talagang 'infatuation' at 'obsession' lang iyon then so be it. I don't mind as long as I can be with him.

"You make me horny. And thus making me horny makes me happy as well. My dad once told me that the person who will capture my heart is the one who can make me happy. You make me happy. Really happy. Happy in the sense that I'm contented with my life."

Napatitig siya sa akin. As in titig talaga. Naga-gwapuhan ata siya as akin. Sabagay lahat naman may ganyang reaksyon tuwing nakikita ako.

"I still don't get you... but I think we can fuck."

I grinned and pulled him until my lips crashed against his.

End.

Note: hi. Walang plot ito. I wrote whatever comes into my mind. May writer's block kasi ako kaya naisipan ko ito. Nabasa ko kasi sa book ni Noringai (Buti pa ang Roma may bagong Papa) na kapag may writer's block ka dapat mag free-fall writing ka. I tried it and ended up with Dirty Talks. I'll polish this story one day. I'm just trying to have my EXO feels back. Parang nawala kasi after all the issues about the group.