Perfect Moments

CHAPTER 1 : BUT IT'S OVER NOW

I liked you because you could make me smile. I fell in love with you because you made me want to be a better person. Now that you're leaving me, what am I supposed to do?

-Lisa Gilbert-

Today is our anniversary so I thought I might cook something special for us. I smiled to myself standing in front of his door while holding our all-time favourite wine and groceries that I bought from the mart across the street.

His apartment was just a few blocks away from New York University. He moved here merely for me, so that we can be together as long as we could and no one will know about us.

That's why every day after I finished my class, I will always go to his apartment to see him without worry or trying to hide. And yes, no one knows about us except for Rafa, Jessie and Noah.

The routine was going through my mind at that moment. I was entered his apartment back from college, he was either watching tv, doing his work at the coffee table or sleeping on the couch but in every scenario, he would always welcome me home with a smile on his face, one of the reason why I fell in love with him.

 And I would cook us dinner and both of us will do our works or watch our all-time favourite movies. We would also drink wine at the balcony and just talk. But little did I know, I was wrong.

When I finally opened the door, I saw his house was half empty. All the furniture was there but most of his things are gone except mine. I was panicked! so I drop everything that I hold onto the kitchen counter and went straight to his bedroom.

I saw him, packing his things into his suitcase. He hasn't notice me yet. My eyes are blurry because of the tears that hanging in my eyes.

"Sweetheart, what are you doing?" He finally turned his back to look at me.

His shocking expression immediately turns into sad and guilt when he saw me.

"I.... I'm sorry queen"

I was only gone for a few days but he looks so horrible. With his abandoned outlook, uncombed hair, unshaved beard, tired face like he hasn't had any sleep at all and his eyes were red as if he was crying all night long.

 He looked much older than his chronological age at that moment. I was confused! I don't know what to do. All I know is that I want to hold him in my arms so bad and wish this nightmare will end.

I walked towards him, step by step, slowly getting rid of the space between us until there's none. I put my hand on his cheek but he turned his head away.

"What have I done? We could always talk about it just like we used to do... just please Nathaniel, don't leave me..." I said calmly though I tried so hard not to let the tears fall down.

"I'm getting married, Ky! Soon... I know it's purely business but I still can't let myself hurting you, the woman that I love or even her and letting you go is probably the right choice I ever made." He said.

I took a step back, trying to ponder what was going on. He on the other hand continued and had finished packing his things. He took his suitcase and walked towards the main door. I grab his hand, trying to stop him. 

Then I turn to look at him with full of hatred and betrayal in return he looks at me with a stern look and clenched jaw. Then I said one word, the one word that made him soften his face.

"why?" I said with an angry tone.

"You and I belong to different world. You are still young, you wouldn't understand. I am not getting any younger, I can't wait for you anymore Ky. I have huge responsibilities on my shoulder and... I don't want you to ruin your life because of me." He sighed.

"This apartment is filled with memories in every corner, thanks to you. You can do whatever you want with this apartment. Consider it as a gift for giving me the most wonderful 4 years I ever had" As he kissed me on the cheek.

He drags his suitcase to the living room. I was running, trying to catch to him and I hugged him from the back, tightly as he was just about to open the door. His back was already wet because of my endless sobbing.

"Nathaniel please... I love you"

He rubs my hand while slowly pulling my hand away from him as he pulls me into his arms. He pulls away his head slowly and kiss me. I had never been kissed by him like this. I

t was gentle but needy, as if he doesn't want the kiss to end and I know that the kiss was full of sadness and sorrow. I felt that my cheeks were wet, not just by my tears but it also came from him, the man that I love the most.

"I love you too my dearest queen. Not once have I stopped loving you." Said Nathaniel in between the kiss.

He pushes me away from his body as he looks at me for the last time, his forehead was against mine smiling while shedding a tear. We were both breathing heavily because of the kiss.

"Goodbye Ky, I wish nothing but for you to be happy, even if it's not with me..." he walked away leaving me alone in this cold and empty apartment that used to feel warm and bright.

"If you dare to take one more step away from me, that will be it. No more second chances, no more getting back together, this will be the end of us Nathan king."  He stopped and turn towards me smile as a tear dropped from his eyes down to his cheek and continued to walk away from the apartment.

As the the door shut, my body fell to the ground because my legs was shaking and doesn't have the strength to hold me up. I cried and cried and cried until I felt dizzy and everything seems nothing but darkness.

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Finally!!!! I hope you guys enjoy my first work and  I would like to apologize if there's any grammar mistake because English is not my second language.

And please comment your thoughts or any correction that needs to be done. 

I love you guys so much.

Love,

Jaena xxx.