The Sailor's wife

CHAPTER ONE

" I have waited & waited, I stood nearby the shore and glanced across the furthest my eyes could reach & to beyond the horizon, yet nothing to be seen. The waves were as tame as a horse could be & the sky was crystal clear. I bit my lips out of worry, noticing how the waether is so serene & my heart started aching, I held the letter that he lastly sent to me, I held it close to my chest, I pressed it hard to my heart till I could swear I could feel the words he wrote being printed on my chest!

I took a rock for a seat, and I sat down remembering all the moments that we shared, slowly acknowledging the fact that he has become my life, & that spending my life without him, not being next to me, with me, by me, is just time that's worthless to be lived. I tried to stop myself from going back to feel how it was when he was around, but that didn't work out, I found my brain flashing back all those lingering shades of memories, of how he used to wrap me around his arms, how his breath felt over my skin, his shaved rough chin rubbing over my shoulders, his aroma, his warm big hands holding my shaky ones firmly for soothing me as if trying to tell me everything was going to be alright. I used to believe him, I used to trust him, now all that seems to fade away, & the fear of forgetting his face was something I couldn't tolerate nor accept.

I distracted myself from the web of imagination that I built and started reading his letter, his words, loudly, attentively, & although I'd already memorized it by heart,  I liked reading it to have the feeling that he is still around and talking to me.

Dear Emilly,

I need you not to worry, we have encountered some obstacles, but we succeded to conquer it along with a few troubles on our way back from war. Right now I am in Killrudery, & I couldn't stop myself from remembering how you talked about this place's beauty on & on without stopping, well now i know why! I promise to take you here one day, I promise. Emma, I know I don't tell you this alot but you are the reason why I am alive till this day, you are my world  & without you I cease to exist. Do take care of yourself & wait for me.

Love, Royce

I knew Royce very well, infact I am the only one who could read out his expressions and tell what he was thinking. I have known him since we were kids, i have been there when his mother passed away & when his Step-father kicked him out of his own house. He took all his money depriving him from his family's legacy, from his wealth, the house he grew up in, from everything. So i also knew that he was not that type of an emotional person, & him writing down these words about me, were hard for me to accept because I know whenever he becomes setimental there is somthing huge and weary that's keeping him in worry, & that's when my heart felt that something was wrong! "