I get so confused...
I mean I just broke up with my boyfriend of only almost 4 months..why?
I mean was it the right choice?
Am I going to regret it later on? They always say staying is worse than leaving right?
Then not a week after breaking up with this dude is the guy I've been thinking about for a while now...
I met him at a party... But I actually met him before...
Problem: he really likes my best friend but she doesn't feel the same, so now he's mad at her & won't even talk to me.
So even if I did date him would I be compared to her the whole time?
He's not even a Christian so it's not like I could date him right now...he cusses too which I don't mind occasionally but that rubs off on me.
Well at the party is when we really hung out...
To me me he has a panty dropping smile, unbelievable hugs, & loves to cuddle...
I wish I could read his mind to see what he thinks about me... Granted I don't even know if he knows that I broke up with my bf...
He said he'd like my toenails painted a pink...well personally I don't like pink so I made them coral color & I actually really like the color...he said he liked them
Me & my best friend hung out at his house & I gave him a back massage & tickled his back & played with his hair....I love to do that it calms me...
When my friend went to do her hair for church he started kissing my neck & grabbing my hair & pulling me to him...& I personally love it when guys do that...I never let him kiss me because at the time I was still dating the now current ex-bf...
He loves getting his hair pulled & breathing on his neck & biting of the ear...& it's Sooo much fun to toy with him...
He said if he dated & the girl wanted to wait then he would...
He's had sex before many of times...if we dated & got married would I be as good as the others... I know he would coach me through on whatever he likes & I would hope the boy could get me off... Trust me if you saw his tongue... Mmmmmm wow let's just say it can move...
& I know he probably wouldn't have a problem with my past...hopefully
I take him for a guy that could grab me & be aggressive about it...he told me he's possessive
The guy is a teddy bear with a smile that just makes me smile back & I can't help it...
He might see it as a girl with a crush.. : / or worse an infatuation...
to me he's a heartthrob I see him & I smile & sometimes he smiles at me sometimes not...but in the end he'll always give me a hug & I love it...
I love him as a person but I don't like how he lives his life sometimes...
Such as he drinks.... I dont like it...
He's not a Christian... Or he just doesn't live it out... Don't like it...
I want a guy that can lead me closer to God not further away....I need all the help I can get
I love & hate that he is in the National Guard because that means hell be on the front line if we go to war....
But it still means he's willing to fight....
I can tell hell be a great father one day...I just know it...I can tell things about people...
I'm gonna close this one up for right now I'll add more later...
Probably how my family dislikes me now ever sense I broke up with the guy...
Maybe how my friend is moving away...
Or more on this guy...
Idk... Just trying to clear my head
