Guys suck & sometimes your family does too...

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Why do guys have to suck so much?

I mean come on what if I do/ did like you & then I don't know how to express myself in a non weird way...then " BAM!!!" I'm defriended on Facebook from the dude....what reasons I couldn't tell you right now :/ sucks I know

I get so pissed off at my family....

Clean out the litter box, stay quite they are asleep, don't fuss at the dog, don't say butt or stupid or sucks or anything that can be taken bad around the boys, can you pause, turn, or turn off the tv so the boys can be in here.... Makes me sick...

You don't like that the litter box is stinky & there is litter on the floor well clean it up yourself cause i did it yesterday....

I wouldn't fuss at your freakin dog if you would train the stupid thing to stay out from under our feet while we are eating....or maybe just teach him how to move!!!

The words are in my vocabulary.....it's a little hard too stop saying it...

I was in here first take them somewhere different....I don't change the channel when they are watching something why do I have to do it?

Take me away....

Now I may being a bit of a brat but i want them to LEAVE!!!!

On other subjects...

My best friend is gone for 2 months!!! :( I miss her & I want her here with me so I can tell her when something has happened & I'm pissed off, or sad, or if I like someone, or just about my day...

I'll be talking to her tomorrow though defiantly...I start my first job tomorrow at Waterfront Grill...I'm 18 and I have never had a reall job before...

I can't wait to call her & tell her about what has happened...

I'm growing right now & my leg is freaking killing me haha yay I get to be taller :D

Have you ever had the feeling that your not sure where your future is going? Well that's me right now :/

I mean seriously I think to myself do I want to get married one day? Is is for me? Is there someone for me to understand me? What am I going to do with my life? I'll need a job if I don't marry someone... But I really want someone who will understand that I want to be held & comforted not petted & treated as a child...I want a protector, a father, a passionate person...I don't want someone who says they love me & not show it...& when they show it it's the wrong kind of love...I don't want to be talked down on...I want an encourager...but someone who will still correct me...

I just don't know what to think anymore... I need help...but in all honesty who would want to help me?...well other than my friends...I get down in this depressing mood & it takes me forever to get out of it!!! I hate it...

I don't want to have my ex-bf coming to me saying I can help you...well I don't want your help!! I have others that can help! I want to run & scream & hit & bite & destroy something...I want to be able to run to someone completely broken & they help me put myself back together ... For someone to hold me while I cry my freaking eyes out because I've built this huge freakin wall up & it's so think I don't let anyone get to me...nothing effects me... I've let myself go to hell & back...& I want to stop but is there any help? There's God but I don't know how to reach to Him to pull me out of this Hell hole I put myself into...

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⏰ Last updated: Aug 03, 2012 ⏰

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