Love bites

Prequel

I was born cursed. My family was a broken one, one that had already been falling apart before I came into existence. My parents fought a lot. My dad would go out to sea or whatever he did in the Navy, and my mother would drown everything out with a bottle of booze. When my mother was pregnant, my parents had hoped I would be the child they had wanted, a son of course. They had two other children, both girls. Mom and dad had longed for a son, and I believe the doctor was the one who had cursed me originally. He got my gender wrong when he had done my mother's sonogram. He told them I was a boy, and my parents picked my name, James Daniel. My father was out on duty when I was born, so my mother, out of confusion, just threw my name together off the top of her head. She mamed me Jess Nicole. God, how I hate my name. My parents had a rocky relationship, but after I was born, it all fell apart. My earliest memories were those I had obtained in pre-school.  I remember my father would visit my class and I would cry because I'd fallen asleep each time he visited. When I was coming close to the age of four he had gotten into a huge fight with my mother. To clear his head he went on a camping trip, but in his way there,  he'd been in a fatal car crash. They had later buried him on my fourth birthday,  and that made me hate my birthday for the years to come. My mother blamed me for my father's death because I was never what he had wanted.  I think that's originally where it all started,  where it all went wrong at least.