04/06
Dear (y/n),
I couldn't finish this story earlier because of the bad memory. I'm sorry.
But I will continue.
Yes, I tried to kill myself. It definitely hasn't been the first time. I'll spare the details because I wouldn't want you to know about it.
This try didn't exactly work... seeing as I am writing these letters.
Anyway, you somehow found me again, when I thought for sure you wouldn't find me. I ended up yelling at you again.
Why am I a horrible person to the one I love?
You refused to leave, you wanted answers. I told you to turn around. You eventually did.
I did too. If I don't see you, maybe I can convince myself that this isn't real.
You asked me, "Who are you?"
"Jeon Jungkook." That's all I could manage at the moment. The weight of the situation was sinking onto me.
You paused for a moment, "why?"
"I never wanted to live for anything other than my flowers. I was... going to die after the last flower." I admitted slowly and carefully.
You asked why again.
"I'm so so afraid. I'm ugly and I can't love you. You're better off just never seeing me. So please... just leave." Tears were flowing down my face soundlessly as I shook. I was so scared.
She doesn't leave. "I'm staying. I don't care if you're ugly. Everyone has beauty in them."
I love you.
"I can't show you me... I'm sorry"
I love you.
"Then why all the flowers?" She asks with a slight tone of exasperation.
"It's the only way.." My crying becomes a wracking sob. I turned around against my own will.
She was there. Her face towards me...
She was smiling.
My sobs started to suffocate me. I barely managed to say, "Don't smile at me. You're just lying. Faking it. Please... don't lie to me"
"Im not. I would never lie. You are not hideous." She said this with a beautiful tranquility that almost seemed to calm my storm of tears.
"Please stop lying. I am really disgusting. So please just leave. Please don't come back." I said. It was harsh sounding. It came off mean. I'm sorry.
"I-I am sorry. Please, please just stay alive." After that, I heard you get up and leave.
I was left alone with myself.. my mind.. my thoughts.
I curled up, and cried. I cried and cried. I cried and yelled in anguish. Why am I still alive?
Why am I still alive?
Jeon Jungkook
YOU ARE READING
Untold (Jungkook X Reader)
Short StoryThis is the account of what happened to a man who knew he was ugly. His only will to live are his flowers. That is, until he saw her. Xxx Hope you enjoy. There is triggering content.
