Requiem of Love

Part 2

"Why did you leave me Gauri? Why did you leave me when I needed you the most? When the drugs became my only remedy...You promised to pull me out of that hole...So Why did you go?

Gauri closed her eyes. How could she tell him now?

"Why didn't you look for me if you need me that much? In the past 5 years have you even tried to understand me Omkara?

Turning her around she was pulled up against his chest.

"I looked for you every single day for 2 years. Hell I even thought you were dead Gauri. I needed you and you left me. Did you feel ashamed to be married to a drug addict? Did you hate me for falling weak after Shivaay and Anika left and my only solace became the Drugs? Tell me WHY DID YOU LEAVE? And that with a Note...Did I mean that little to you?

Omkara grabbed her harder and she closed her eyes in pain. How could he think that she felt ashamed? How could he for a minute believe that she hated him for falling weak.

"How can you even think that? Did you really believe I hated you for falling weak? YOU WERE THE ONE TO PUSH ME AWAY OMKARA. Instead of letting me help you, you pushed me away. The woman you claimed to love! Have you ever thought about what that did to me? Seeing you suffer yet not being able to help?

They looked at each other and felt it. They felt the air around them change and before he could lean in to kiss her she pushed him away.

"Gauri...

"No Omkara. I don't want to talk about it anymore. For the past 5 years I lived alone. Dhruv and I were happy in our small world, just the two of us. If you would really have cared for me, you would have found me but never mind...Destiny had other plans for us. She looked at him and then sat down on the Bed. She was exhausted. Reliving her past made her relive the Pain. The taunting. If he only knew why she had left.

"You are a failure as his Wife Gauri. How can you not stop him from taking the Drugs?

"You are a Curse in his Life...You couldn't save him from his demons.

"If he dies it will be because of you!

"If you his so called Wife can't help him than who can?

"I curse the day you became his Wife. You never could save him. You are his downfall.

She still heard their Voices, the way they used to make her feel whenever she saw him drifting deeper into his Darkness. How could he understand? He had to fight his own battles, she wasn't angry with him for taking Drugs, she was angry that he had pushed her away, that he had made her feel that everyone was right and that she was indeed a curse in his Life. Without turning she heard him look for something.

"Dear Omkaraji, I am sorry to leave like that but It is better that way. I was a failure as your Wife and I am sorry.

Don't Look For me,

Yours Gauri. He read out loud. She remembered that Day clearly, the Day she had found out about Dhruv. The day that was supposed to be their happiest day. She had planned on telling him only to find him in their bathroom with a syringe in his arm.

When she had tried to stop him he had pushed her out of the Room. That was when she had decided to go. Not being able to save if felt worse than living without him.