Again I woke up in the same mood I feel asleep with. I debated faking sick so I wouldn't have to go to school and deal with everybody and I figured since it was a half day she would just let me stay home. Yeah well that didn't work so I was forced to put up with everybody in school. Of course since it was almost winter break my best friend went to Canada and was staying there all break and she left yesterday so I was left alone. I walked into advisory and sat in the corner, and waited for everybody else to come in since I was the first one. Of course my friends were always late so I was left with the girls I hated. They stared me up and down examining me to every last inch which was a usual thing they did. I tried to ignore them and it was working up until I overheard something they said. It was about the video of the cover I did. How did they even find it? Nobody knew it was up except me, not even my best friend. "Like she actually thinks she can sing." "I know and like what was the song supposed to make people feel bad for her. She's such a joke." I was about to stand up and say something when the bell rang and I didn't get the chance. I left feeling crappier then ever and went to my locker to get my stuff for Spanish. I walked into Spanish a little late because I tried to calm myself down after what I heard them say. Of course when I walked in they were still talking about me this time about my choice of clothing. "So do just wake up in the morning and think I'm going to wear the ugliest clothes I own today?" I turned to see Cecilia waiting for my response. Do I even bother giving them the satisfaction and answer. "Well are you just gonna stand there clueless or answer me?" That's it I was over this. "I don't know Cecilia. Do you wake up and say I wonder how I can make myself look more like a slut?" After I said it I prepared myself for what was coming my way. Everybody in the class just turned and looked to see what was gonna happen. "What did you say?" "You heard me." "When did you decide to grow some balls?" "When I realized I'm tired of taking shit from stuck up skanks that think they're better then everybody when in actuality they're gonna just trash that need to put everybody else down because their lives are so fucking terrible!" The room got quiet fast and everybody just had a blank expression on their faces. Cecilia didn't know what to say and just stood there staring at me. The bell rang and everybody got up and left the room. For the rest of the day I could feel her staring at me but she never said anything else, it was actually pretty nice to not hear her voice for the rest of the day. The bell rang and we were all dismissed. I left and walked home alone again since even though I did something nobody else had the guts to do it seemed like everybody was afraid to talk to me just incase Cecilia decided to do something. As I walked home I texted my best friend and told her what happened, she said she was proud of me and that it was about time somebody stood up to her and call her a bitch. I got home and found my house empty. There was a note on the counter saying that they all went out for lunch and since I was taking so long they left without me. Some family I had but oh well I had my computer and money. I ordered myself a hoagie and went on twitter. When I went on I saw someone tweet that they were bored and wanted to talk to someone so I decided I would see if I could help their boredom. She tweeted back and we started talking she was really nice and she said her name was Emily. After talking for awhile she thanked me for talking to her and said bye, I said bye to and then went on tumblr. There was another message in my ask box so I clicked it and it was from my best friend Maggy saying that whoever called me a bitch to backoff or I would put them in their place. I couldn't help but laugh I said thanks and posted it then I had another message and it was from Emily saying that whoever was hating on me was stupid and that they should leave me alone. I said thanks and posted that to. It felt nice to know that I had people that were there for me if I needed someone. I went back on twitter and saw that Jay was tweeting like crazy about how excited her was for the holidays and asked everybody what they wanted. So many people were replying that they wanted him and I couldn't blame them who wouldn't but I wanted something more. I wanted someone who would always be there for me no matter what not just a friend but someone who was more. I logged off and layed down to find myself falling asleep.
