The air is cold tonight. And there is noone by my side. The voices inside my head are yelling. I feel like they are having a big fight there. But of course I am just an imaginer. I am trying to focus on the good things but they look very small when I look at the other side. My life gets harder and harder every single day. I walk differently, I think differently. My mind is always in a mess. I feel like I am carrying all the people I've ever met. Some are on the bright side while some are on the dark side. And I can easily say that the dark side is winning the battle. My last break-up is nothing but hell. If only she was on the bright side now. But then again the dark side is winning now. People of bright side are dying and I can hear the battle cries of people of the dark side. They get louder and louder. I feel like they are never going to stop unless... Unless I do something. I can see. I can see that there are only few good people in the castle now. Dark side is in the castle too. Now they are just screaming. Screaming hard as can be. And now... Bright side lost. Lucius is laughing. And all the dark side too. Am I just miserable? Can I think straight now? My mind is getting dark. They got out of the castle. They are invading other cities. One... two and more... Cities are falling so fast. Do I deserve it? I think I did. Everything I did was useless. I am just a waste of time for everyone. Cities are invaded. World is all dark. Not a single light to guide me home. Only a fe.. Wait, I can see a little light. Now I can see better. There's noone around him. He is going to die but I can hear a whisper. A pray. He is praying to me. He is praying for me. Can I survive this night? Can he survive this night? Can he rebuild his empire? Can I start it all over again? Can I destroy the foes? Ca... What is this? A message.
''I know you are sad but please know that I am here for you. I am your friend no matter what.''
A friend. Beloved one. A reason to live. Now it looks brighter. The reinforcements in my heart is destroying the foes. Tables turned. Dark side is defeated. I... This is interesting. What would happen if I didn't have a friend to sent me this? Would I be still here? I think I would. Because Limonos was alive. He was a good memory from the past. A lot died but he survived. I think he would be my reason to live. I hope he would be my reason to live. I can see now. Our memories, good things or something meaningless can be our reason to live. Dark side is strong but I see now that I, myself fed the dark side with my own hands. My soul is saved for now. By me. By my friends. By my memories. By all the good or meaningless things happening in the world. Empire is rebuilt. I can sleep in peace...
Our minds are our kingdoms...
