My Life

Chapter 2

The first day of school is finally done and I couldn't be more happy. It was a pretty slow day given that we were just getting to know each other. Well I grew up with these idiots so I guess it was all pointless, oh well less work for me.

I walk into my room and crash into my lovely bed that is awaiting me, needing sleep after enduring that hellhole today. Why did summer have to be over?

At least I made a friend.
Yeah basically your only friend.

I guess you can say I'm sort of a loner, I don't hang out with much people and I prefer not to talk to new people. Everyone just stabs you in the back anyways. Well except for my best friend Tristan. He has always been there to catch me when I fall. I wouldn't be here without him. But sadly he moved last year and now lives in Toronto. Which is far. It's not far you're just a lazyass.

I try to force thoughts that are rushing back to the back of my mind and forget. But how can I?

I shake my head successfully clearing my head and start to head to the kitchen to grab a snack. I turn the corner and notice my mom's in the kitchen humming an old tune as she makes her coffee. Its probably like her forth pot by now. But who am I to judge.

"Hey baby girl how was your first day of school?" My mom questions as she adds her sugar. She glances at me waiting for my response.

"It was boring, although I think I made a new friend" she nods with a smile gracing her lips.

"That good Suzie I'm glad. You didn't have issues today with that did you?" She responded gesturing to nothing in particular.

Upon being reminded my heart sinks to my stomach and I have trouble breathing. I look up to see worry cross my mother's features and I suddenly feel horrible. It's been a month grow some women balls and get over it.

"Nope no problems, uh well got to go have some big homework to complete" I rush out of the kitchen before she could respond.

Once I enter my room I turn and lock it not wanting my mother to throw a bunch of questions at me. I turn and come faced with my body length mirror I notice my appearance and frown. Why am I so fat? Can't go a day without eating huh fatass?

I feel tears start to cloud my vision as I stare at my stomach as I pull at the fat.
I hate it. I hate it. I HATE IT! I thrash around, feeling frustrated pulling at my hair so hard it might rip out of my head.
I continue to stare in the mirror tears streaming down my face. I look horrible.

I glance at the right side of my body in the reflection and see the one thing that has completely ruined me.

First thing I noticed are the scars and the weird shape, covered by bandages. Next the different shades of skin. Then the way it gerenally looks as a whole. I feel my eyes brim with tears again and flop on my pillow soaking it, trying to find comfort in it that I deeply crave.

My eyes start to feel heavy as I'm pulled into a world of darkness.

~*~

Ding. Ding. Ding.

I jump awake from the sound of my phone groaning. Who is messing with my much needed sleep?

Tristan
Hummmaann you alivvve?

Suzie
Yes, you ruined my sleep -.-

Tristan
You sleep so much, I wouldn't be surprised if you were half cat lol

Suzie
Shushing don't tell my secrets :)

Tristan
I'll sell you to a gypsy for gold :) Sooooo how did today go?

Suzie
It was ok, look I gotta go mom's calling me for dinner byeee

I quickly shut my phone off and put it under my pillow. I don't want to talk about it, it's in the past. Yeah keep telling yourself that.

~*~

Soon the night falls in and I peak outside my bedroom window.
Why do I Let the thought bug me? I swear I must've been a huge bitch in my previous life.

"I wish we could see our previous lives and figure out the reason for bad karma or-"

Ding. Ding. Ding.

"Hey Suzie tomorrow do you want to meet me at the mall so we can go to school together". Stefany asked.

"I think it'll be fun!" I told her excitedly.

After she hung up i starting to get happy , I finally won't be alone at school anymore. And I'll have no reason to think about with happened. This might be the best thing that could happen to me.
With that being said I pass out.

~*~

Chirp. Chirp. Chirp.

I only awake to the sounds of the birds outside my window. I look at my alarm clock.

Fuccckk I'm late for my secong day of school. Breathe Suzie you got this.

I jump out of bed, wash my face,and teeth,  knowing I have no time to shower. I get dressed into light blue ripped jeans and a black crop top. Then I DASH out of my house and make my way towards the school. By the time I get there Cory shows up in front of  me and asked if I was okay. I really didn't want to talk to him so I just nodded at him. When I get to where I was supposed to meet Stefany and to my relief she was still there. Just tapping her foot impatiently and checking her phone. I ran up to her and tapped her on the shoulder. She spun around completely annoyed.

"Explain" she demanded as she started walking to the front of the school.

"I slept through my alarm, I'm sorry" I jogged up to her. For a short girl she can walk fast.
I mean I'm 5'2" but she's like 5'0" haha

We burst through the school doors. We walked towards the drama hallway. We both rushed trying to get to mr. Johnston class. We opened the door and 23 pairs of eyes were on us. I just gave a small smile. Stefany apologized for us being late and we went to take off our shoes and then we sat down. I looked across the circle and my eyes connected with none other then Corys. He just smirked at me.
Why is he always an ass around other people?

Another mystery yet to be solved. I tried my hardest to pay attention in class. But I get so nervous when I preform especially at school. Everyone is judgement and I always think they were staring at me. Laughing at me? God, I don't know

Stefany shook me a bit and snapped me out of my daze. We were broken into groups of 4 and some 5. We had to create a tableu. The entire time working on it i felt like I wasn't actually present. I was basically stuck in my own head. After what seemed like forever the bell went off. I was quick to get all my stuff and leave. Cory stopped me on the way out to again ask me if I was good. 

See? Now he's not a total asshole. Typical.

"Yes I'm fine" I faked a smile. Something I've started to get used too.

"Even what happened this summer with Chase?" I felt my heart sink to my stomach.

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Hey everyone I just pick this thing up again and trying to post more chapters soon

Til next time 💋