destroyed | grayson dolan

one

song for chapter:
save me - xxxtentacion

the plastic red solo cup sat on
the rim of my lips as i tipped it back
allowing the alcohol in my body
along with the burning sensation
at the back of my throat.

nothing but another night where I drank my endless thoughts away and said
goodbye to reality.

i was alone in my room trying to find a cure.
                    something, anything that
could save me from his deadly words that destroyed me.

he was once what i though the
definition of perfect was.
guess i thought
wrong or maybe not at all.

i once lived an amazing life.
fantastic friends, handsome boyfriend,
and loving parents.

now that's all gone.

thanks to that one night.
i should've never said a word to him,
never got in that deal with him.
never let curiosity get the best of me

but i did it
and now there's nothing i can do
to fix it.

he destroyed me, beat me black and blue.
killed me mentally and emotionally.
yet, I was so hopelessly in love
with him.

there's no chance in saving me because I've
already fallen. because im already dead but just
existing.

its funny how your life can change write in front of
your eyes and come crashing down at the
palm of your hands.

my mind is kingdom and endless
but my life isn't.

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