The Greatest

The seizures

It was 5:00am I had been one week since the hospital I couldn't go to sleep I went into the kitchen for water but then I just stared into the sink hearing the water running as I close my eyes with a ringing in my ear I couldn't go to sleep so I just closed my eyes but hours passed and I sat at the table during breakfast "I heard you learned a new song on the piano" my mom said I just continued to play with my food in silence "is this how it's going to be for now on?" She said looking at me but I couldn't look at her "you didnt tell me I was at risk of Brain on fire! And having these problems I never had seizures!" I said leaving the table a ringing in my ear started to get louder I put my headphones on and just started texting my friend days passed on slow and slow I listening to this song and it was saying "I would go back to you" and "your stuck in my head and I can't get you out of here" it just reminded me of my friend he's always stuck in my head /flashback to when we first texted// I texted this very cute guy I told him "hey I just have to say that you're really cute" and he told me "thanks you too!" Something like that and then we started talking more and more and then he had a girlfriend so we became friends but he always called me cute I was started to think he liked me but he couldn't have but did I? I was trying to convince myself I didn't and we were just friends because everyone I like or they just ughhh they just get hurt he just couldn't like me so I just beilved I didn't like him even though I did but it was hard because I was slowly falling in love with him but still he doesn't like me like that he couldn't have no one ever does I texted my friends and some drama was going down and my friend Ana told me I was better off dead or suicide was the best answer for me and my friend Nick told me we didn't date because I was ugly so I decided to cut myself and carve "ugly" into my skin and I just gave up on friends and love //flashback ends// I took off my shirt as the cutts were gone I got into the tub and filled it with water //shallows by daughter plays through the scene// but I had my clothes on my friend was texting me but I just went underwater and the ringing got louder and louder after that I got dressed and went into the living room and I a sharp pain in my head appears and the ringing came louder I yelled out for my mom and the blacked out woke up and the ambulance was here and they were taking me into the truck //youth by daughter starts to play through the scene// and then I started seizing again and again my mother, my sister was yelling what did my mother do? What did she give me but I just blacked out and woke up in the hospital