him.

going...

i love him, i love him, i love him... right?

ughhh why is it so complicated, ha oh wait hes and "f boy" i forgot... just kidding its kinda hard. his nickname for me is goodie goodie ,isn't it great i prefer stud though :). ive learned if he says anything about wanting me then hes saying it to a million other girls. i don't even know why he even texts me. but i don't want him to stop. like i said hes got me hooked. ive been on a roller coaster full of feelings. the worst part? i want him but he wants me for every wrong reason.

alright. so why am i so addicted to him, easy hes like a drug, he knows his was with words he knows how to make you feel so special... then you catch on and find out hes sending the same thing to other girls and it becomes less special. hes the only guy ive cried over. me and my bestfriend where talking. i asked her if it was possible to break up with someone that isn't even yours, if you didn't know we made it possible ;).

whats awful is i cant walk away from him... ive put up with so much an i don't even have a reason why and it hurts i can actually feel it, the way he uses me, the way he doesn't even care. i guess the more it think about it the angier i get because if he asked me out you have no idea how fast i would say yes that's whats screwed up.