The Fighter (A One Direction Fanfic)

Chapter 7

I went home and my mum wasn't home, I'm guessing she was still at work. I went upstairs and on my laptop to start my project. I googled, "suicide statistics"

I clicked a link and a chart came up. It said that every 14.2 minutes someone in the United States commits suicide, and nearly 1 million people try to commit suicide every year.

Wow, I didn't realize that many people tried to kill themselves, this was going to be an interesting project..

*A week later *

I was sitting in class, any minute about to freak out. There were only two more presentations left to go, and I didn't go yet. But the thing is, this entire project changed my whole outlook on my life. Before I did it, I did consider killing myself, I didn't want to live anymore. After doing this project, I can honestly say that I am blessed to be alive. When Mr. Corey called the other girls name, I felt a little better, but then realized I would be the last one to go. She finished her presentation and my heart started to beat fast. 

"Alana, its your turn." I nodded and walked to the front of the class. Everybody was looking at me, even Harry. But he wasn't smirking, or smiling or anything. It looked like he was concentrating.

I began to speak,

"Every 14 minutes, someone in the United States dies by suicide, and nearly 1 million people try to commit suicide every year.  People who are suicidal usually talk like, ' my family would be better off without me.' and start giving away their valuable things. Over 4,000 people of the ages 15-24 die of suicide every year in the US.

People commit suicide because they are having a hard time, and also because of bullying. Over 14% of high school students have considered suicide and almost 7% have attempted it. Bullied victims are between 2-9 times more likely to consider suicide then those who aren't bullied. Around 160,000 students stay home from school everyday because of fear of bullying. Bullying ruins peoples lives. When someone has a bully, every time they seem them they get fearful. People who are bullied don't want to die, they want the pain to end. You become a living ghost. You don't want to wake up in the morning. It's no longer pain, sadness, or even anger. It's beyond that. It's this completely numb feeling that leaves you feeling so unbearably empty. Hollow almost, like there's nothing left of you.

But the thing is, suicide isn't  the answer. Suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems. Did you know that every night, someone thinks about you before you go to sleep? At least fifteen people in this world love you. The only reason someone would hate you, is because they want to be to you. There are at least two people in this world who die for you. Someone in this world who doesn't even know you, loves you.  When you make the biggest mistake, something good comes from it. When it looks like the world turned on you, look again.

Before you really consider killing yourself, think about it first. There's no coming back, and I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears then you led yourself to. You re making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like used  to when they had you. You are beautiful, and you are never ever alone."

I finished by speech and looked at everyone in the class. Some girls were crying, others jaws were dropped. I looked at Harry. He just looked frozen. I sat down in my seat, and  Mr.Corey began to speak. The bell wrung and he called me to stay after class.

"Alana, that was amazing, that speech you gave."

I smiled and said, "Thank you."

I lef the class and Maddie was outside waiting for me.

"Alana, that was beautiful."

"Thanks girl, let's go to lunch."

We walked to lunch and sat at our usual table.

Maddie eyes went wide, she was looking at something behind me. I turned around and saw Harry, Louis, Niall, Liam and Zayn walking our way.

"Why the hell are they coming over here?" I said, my voice was shaking.

She shrugged, "I don't know."

Then I looked to my left and saw Harry sitting right next to me. On the other side of me was Niall. By Maddie, was Louis, Zayn and Liam.

Harry spoke, "Alana, that presentation you gave was amazing. I wanted to apologize for everything I've put you through. I honestly didn't think about what could happen if I ever took it to far. Your so strong for putting up with me, you don't have to be scared of me anymore. I'm not going to hurt you anymore. Maybe we can be friends?" Tears were in his eyes.

How could he fucking expect me to forgive him? 10 years of my life were hell because of him. I don't even know if he was being honest. He could just be saying that now, and later he could be punching me. 

I stood up and walked out of the cafeteria, and into the hall. I heard footsteps behind me, and turned around and saw Harry.