This book belongs to: Hallie McPherson
I was told to write this “journal” to help with the grieving stage of loosing my best friend Maddie Lavage. I decided to write this to Maddie, hoping she would read it. Apparently this is going to help… so, here it is. :)
20th December 2014
So, it’s been a year since the accident. A hard, cruel and painful year. A year since I lost my best friend. Today at school we held a memorial for her, Maddie I mean. I had to sit up on the stage in front of everyone. I wasn’t alone though. James was there. I haven’t spoken to him since he killed his sister. I could see out the corner of my eye that he was staring at me. He wanted to speak to me, about the car crash that killed Maddie. He’s only just been let out of the hospital. I know this because when I went in yesterday he didn’t try to find me. Don’t worry, it wasn’t anything serious, just another depression thing. I’ve been in and out of that hospital for ten months, having tests, recovery, more test, support group but the worst part about the hospital is all the people there. They think that they know what you are going through, but they don’t. They have no idea what it’s like to see your best friend die right in front of you. Love Hallie xx
One year ago, I was with my best friend Maddie. We were coming home from the park at about three in the afternoon. James was driving past when he noticed us and offered to drive us back to his house. We didn’t know he was at the pub earlier that day, he’s nineteen so he can drink. The park was about five blocks from Maddie’s house so we could have easily walked home but seeing as it was dark we decided to go with James. Big mistake. Maddie was sitting behind the empty passenger and I was behind James.We were just driving past the bakery when James decided to turn around and talk to us. We were having a conversation about the football match that we watched together. We were coming up to the intersection, no one noticed though. We were screaming and yelling at him to turn around and stop bet he insisted that it was going to be a green light. It wasn’t. A car going seventy in a sixty kilometre zone smashed in to the passenger side of the car. Maddie was killed instantly, right before my eyes. I saw her die. The left side of my body was left without a bone unbroken. My left limbs, ribs and skull were smashed to bits. I had serious bleeding to the brain. The doctors said it was a miracle that I survived. Most of the time I just wanted to die, I wanted to let go. I just wanted to be with Maddie. I didn’t care where it is, as long as I was with her.
23rd December 2014
You would think that after a year I would have found a new best friend. Some one to replace Maddie. I haven’t. Yeah, I have other friends, but no one will be able to take Maddie’s place. Oh that reminds me, I went to the movies with Chelsea it was okay. Don’t get me wrong, she’s great but, it just isn’t the same. I wish there was some way I could see you again. I have a maths and English final on Tuesday, so not ready. Love Hallie xx
