My Poetry

Guilty Love

This story is based on a gay man. Sorry if its offensive to anyone.

Why,

Why me?

I stared at him,

Couldn't take my eyes off him,

But I didn't know,

If he is like me...

You know,

Gay I guess you can call it.

I was Christian.

I couldn't love him,

But I tried to stop,

Stop myself from loving,

Maybe try a girl.

But you can't change love,

I was born with guilt,

Yet I manage to keep a secret.

Know one knew,

Not even my crushes.

I was too shy,

I was too young,

What happened if I died,

Knowing I still had unforgiven sins.

I kept doubting myself,

I'm not gay, I'm not gay.

But I am!

I prayed,

Every night I prayed,

I knew Jesus was there,

He knew what I felt,

Still.

I kept looking at him,

With love in my eyes,

He was perfect.

Just didn't know if he would even accepted me,

I could have died facing the facts,

And thats why my second life is secret,

Beyond all.

I was lonely,

Even with these friends,

I just didn't know what to do.

Know one knows what it feel to be cursed with this love,

I could always marry a women,

But never feel complete.

I hope you understand,

I'm not different,

Just stuck here,

In a problem that could never change,

Afraid to ask,

Afraid to lose my hiding spot.

I could always wish,

But everyone keeps their second life secret,

and Only the brave have had their love completed.

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