Summer loving (Wattys 2018)

Pool Time Siting Alone Watching The the Stars Go By 💫

Everyone went inside the music was lower and people were tried some went home some just slept over

My feet were dangling in the water as I was looking up at ya stars they shined so bright I remember my father when I was a little girl before he and my mother started their business, their career whatever you want to call it he told me if I couldn't sleep look up at the stars I remember my child like self would ask why and he would say because all the greatest memories of love in the stars so whatever your heart wants happiness look up at the stars and it will be granted and from their on end every time I saw stars in the night sky's I would always think of the story my father told me when I know he once loved me.

A tear went down my face as I heard someone walking their way toward me I'm guessing it was Lilly the last time I saw her was on the roof i didn't want to bother her as I saw she was making out with Eric somehow he was able to make it on time I guess she texted him her location.

As I heard the person coming near I saw two male feet swim in the water beside me

"What do you want Adam."

"Can we talk."

"Please Emma I haven't seen you in so long and I don't want to feel like you hate me."

I could never hate you Adam

Then why the cold shoulder all of sudden.

Adam do you know how long it's been since I seen you

I don't know it's been a month right

You really don't remember don't you I said as a tear went down my face

Adam you were in a coma.

"What do you mean?"

He said a bit worried

Tears fell down my face as I needed time to adjusted to want I was saying it's been so long that I was holding it in

Adam you OD on Drugs

They found a chuck of heroin in your system you almost Died Adam don't you remember don't you remember the countless days I spent by your side I thought I was gonna loose you I had no one to talk to I didn't have my best friend because he was gone you been gone for so long and then out of the blue you show up how do you think I'm supposed to react Adam. Please tell me because I was so scared Adam that i stuffers through Depression I had to be Emitted to a clinic and I promise Adam I'm not blaming you but don't you remember at all
I moved on from you Adam and I don't think I could ever go back I'm in love with someone new and I at least feel safer now so just please Adam don't waste you time because a part of me can't even look at you without seeing you lifeless on that bed

I got up and headed back inside it took me so long to talk it through now it even my therapist I told the only person who ever knew what I been through was Lilly and that's why I knew we would be friends forever because she knew the shit I had to go through my whole life

Guess the shadows are meant to be hidden.