Cloud Nine

Test the Water

Why does it have to be me?
Got locked up with long distance relationship for 6 years and I heard 4 different voices through my ears.

I have been travelling from places to places because I like it more seeing faces physically than virtually.

Why these things should happen to me?
Doing all these things that love brings.
Understanding every excuses and me getting all the bruises.

Why always me?
Been getting a lot of punches and how stupid of me of not dodging even one but bunches.

Why me?
When you were the one who told me.
We can make it. Did you just fake it?

Let's test the water and wait until we tear apart.
Is that better?
Or are we just going to play around?
Please...I'm not good at this.
I have nothing to do with falling into the ground.

You like me more whenever I stay close to you but you knew I will not always be there for you.
And I am afraid I might lose you.
But I want to save myself so I won't choose you.

Maybe it's better if we will not talk to each other.
Knowing that "us" wont work any longer.
Know that it hurts me more when you want to talk to me like we used to be.
But truth hurts.
It can't be you and me.

What we have in between is so unpredictable...
To get disappointed, hurt and be hopeless are very understandable.
You said you want me but honestly, you scare me.
I don't know what to do. I am so confused about you.
But maybe I'll just wait for whatever life brings.
If ever you and me were made to be heartstrings.

Why does it have to be always me?
You said you like me more than anything else but right from the start I knew you were just testing the waters and does that make sense?