Complicated

||yours||

I could never write about lust, or love even,
mostly because I was too scared to put myself out there and think about it,
and writing about it made it real.
The thought of trying to find someone
made my stomach turn with anticipation
while my hands would become sweaty.
I'm so scared,
what if I'm not good in a relationship,
or maybe I'm gonna be a shitty person to my partner.
K, you know who you are,
and I'm saying sorry in advance so you know
I was never intending on hurting you,
I'm saying this because I know that I will end up
damaging what we might have.
And maybe even permanently hurting you.
I have my own issues with certain things,
but I promise you that I'll never treat you like shit on purpose.
Honestly I need to say this because it might happen and it might not,
hopefully it doesn't,
but you need to know this stuff if you eventually intend on getting in this boat with me.