Meant to be

Happy birthday.

It's raining again. Just like i want it to be. I don't even know why i love rain so much, maybe it's because of the sound of the rain drops or maybe it kinda makes me feel less lonely, makes me feel like someone out there is also going through this madness.
Speaking of madness

  "Annastasia? You know how much i hate when you're acting so childish! Can't you just be normal and go do something useful for your father? You're just a waste of air that's all."
Oh, my sweet, sweet daddy. This is how much of a close relationship we really have.

I don't even reply to him, because my words just don't matter. I'm so glad that summer break is about to end. I mean don't think that i love school or something but as long as i'm not at home, i'm happy.

This summer break kinda messed up everything for me. I haven't even seen my boyfriend for a month, i guess and that kinda makes me want to lay in my bed and watch tv shows all day long, but fortunately i have a few friends,who will never let that happen.

Maria is my happiness. She's like little star to me, she's so full of joy and energy that it makes me feel that way too. She's my best friend and to be honest i feel like we're more of a sister now. We have been best friends for 10 years and since we're classmates as well as neighbors, we get to spend every day with each other.
There's also Cindy, who came into our lives pretty unexpectedly but we still love her so much. I have known her for 2 years already.

Even tho my father doesn't remember about it, it's my birthday tomorrow and i really hope that i get to spend it with my friends and my boyfriend, Nika.
I haven't told you about Nika, have i? well i was saving the sweetest for the last. We met at the dance studio when we were 8. I was with Maria and he used to give me a lot of candy, basically he was just perfect for me. He had a long hair and a big bright eyes, which i love.
So after having a horrible, creepiest crush on him for 2 years, he told me he loved me and that's kinda my one of my favorite days.
Since then we have made a lot of memories together and i feel like i can never stop loving him. Just even after sooo many years. Even when i'm turning 17 tomorrow, i'm always gonna be that creep who was staring at him all day long at school and who was trying to be his partner in a dance lessons.
He's on a vacation with his family now but I really feel like or i'm just hoping that he will surprise me for my birthday.

I'm a light sleeper so i woke up instantly when i heard a door bell, obviously it was Maria.
She entered my room with such a big smile on her face, she was beautiful as always, wearing one of her prettiest dresses, i wish i could have so many clothes.
" HAPPY BIRTHDAY, since i know you haven't planned anything yet, i had this great idea while i was on my way here, we should have a sleepover at my house tonight, watch your favorite movies and just do whatever you want to do."
Oh, dear. Not being able to see my dad for a whole day. Where do i sign.
" sounds amazing,M, i'm gonna text Ci to let her kno.."
Maria just cuts me off and takes my phone away from me.
" to be honest i just don't really feel as comfortable around her anymore. Even though i did tell you that I didn't like her from the very beginning, but now i just know that she's trying to tear us apart, like i swear."
Well this is unusual, since she's always with her when not with me but i guess it's her idea so her rules.
To be honest, all i want to do is to dress up nicely, go somewhere fancy and just celebrate my birthday and feel like it's really my day today, but i guess dreams can't come true in real life.
I got up and dressed just comfortable, i don't put any make up on to be honest, not because i don't like it, but because i don't know how.
As soon as we came over at Maria's, her brother Aaron greeted me with a huge smile.
"I heard you're not wearing your diapers anymore, happy birthday."
Ugh. I know that he's soo annoying but i guess i'm used to his silliness, since i know him as long as i know Maria.
"Thanks, hope you can get rid of yours too. "
He's like 2 years old than us but for some reason he always thinks that he's our babysitter.

The day went pretty well and I enjoyed being in their company. We watched a lot of movies and also played some silly games Aaron suggested.
It's just i'm missing something and i feel like this something has to do something with Nika.

I am upset that he hasn't called or texted on my birthday, but he might have his reasons. He might be on his way here or something and i was trying not to call him all day but now i just can't help it anymore.

"Hey baby, i'm kinda missing you toda.."
And when i heard this voice, i just didn't know how to talk anymore. My whole brain and body just froze and it took me a while to realize what's happening.
" i'm sorry but he's taking shower right now, but i bet we're gonna do round two so just tell me what you wanted to say, baby"
Her voice is gonna be stuck in my head for a long time. I know this.
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