Invisible Line.

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ni LostSoulWithBraces

ni LostSoulWithBraces

Kamusta ka na? Okay ka na ba?

Maayos naman ako. Moved on na, I finally crossed that invisible finish line. Ikaw?

I'm fine, cherishing every great thing in life. Fun!

Pwede magtanong?

Tungkol sa?

May i-ttry lang ako. Hahawakan ko ulit yung kamay mo, aalahanin lahat: masaya, mababaw, masakit at malalim na naramdaman. Kumbaga, instinct checker ko if I am really over you. So, can I?

Agh, sige-sige.

*hinawakan yung kamay, napapikit*

*dumilat, ngiting dismayado'y naipinta*

Biruin mo 'yon? Akala ko babalik e, akala ko magsi-sink in ulit lahat ng masasayang panahon and the fleeting feeling. Akala ko gugustuhin ko nang bumalik kasi nandito ka na sa harap ko. Pero wala. Parang wala na lang nung hinawakan kita. I do not yearn for your hair anymore when you laid it down on my shoulder while crying on the 28th of January three years ago. I did not yearn for the silly dances we made in our office anymore, I did not yearn for your comfort when I was in the midst of ambiguity anymore, I did not yearn for the memory of you and I, writing each other, helping each other, loving each other anymore. I did not crave for that crestfallen feeling when I do not see you. I did not yearn for your embraces and advises anymore. And lastly, I do not yearn for you anymore. And that is something I should be gratified for. That excruciating pain you gave me do not bother me at all anymore. Some songs may give me that sighing feeling, but no. I really am over you. Wala ng kabog sa dibdib ko.

Mabuti naman. Do you still remember what I said that it is hard to miss people? Then I told you not to miss me? I hope everything makes sense now.

Siyempre. 'Di ko yata makakalimutan 'yon. The details may be as vague as they can be now, pero sinulat ko lang naman lahat ng sinabi mo sa akin 'no! Gano'n ako ka-indulged and desperate sa pagmamahal mo, which I realized na sobrang sabaw. *giggles*

I can really see the aura and the changes and who you become after three long years, ang daming nabago. And I hope may naitulong ako. Huling tanong, minahal mo ba talaga 'ko? Mahal mo pa ba ako?

Bakit? Mukha bang hindi? Kapag sinabi ko bang mahal pa rin kita, may magbabago ba? Will things go back to its original state? Will your heart fall free on me? No. Wala e, 'di talaga tayo pwede. Ang masasabi ko lang, the cautiousness you caused me is the greatest of every single thing you told me. Dahil wala pa ring nakakapantay sa'yo. Good luck sa buhay and thank you.

Salamat din. Love you.

Huwag mo 'ko I love you-hin, I can't say it back anymore.