SAVE ME

the big plan!

(there i was feeling alone even though I was in a room full of people. but knowing that my mom might not make it is making my heart drop to my stump. and I was getting the empty felling that I was alone .with the felling that I might not get to see my mom is gone and all of the fun memory like shopping at the mall,also  cleaning with loud music and pretending like we are rock stars with using the spoons as microphones and  the broom as a guitar would all also be gone with her and her desiccating lifeless body. its hard to imagine my life with out her what would I do would I go insane and cut myself off from the rest of the world even tough she yells at me i know that she is the bet thing in my life the one I can depend on. she has helped me when I got dumped by my dick of a boyfriend and she stayed there and comforted me and we watched movies and lessened to breakup songs. there were lots of crying that might and even when she had her own problems in life she still sat with me for hours and told me that everything would be okay. and not only me what would happen to Jeremy and Jake they are so young how would they even live with the tough that they would never see there mother again. how would I be a good sister? were would we live we cant live with are abusive father Andy that piece of crap that should not even be alive today it he would destroy us or abandon us and leave us for dead. but what if he didn't want us would that mean that me and my brothers would have to go to an adoption agencies. Then some one adopts one of us what would happen then would they leave us or would we never get to see each other. god i could never life with that let alone my dad not liking us and my mom gone and on top of that not being able to see my brothers. my life would be gone the only things that i love other than my best friends arley and Colby. but would that be enough to keep me from not going crazy? i really love them more then anyone would ever know and more then words can even describe,  don't even get me started on my best friend in this whole life we are ride or die. she is a person that would do anything for you she is a person that you could talk to for hours and never get bored. she is always there when i want to talk about Colby and she even tries to make  me to go and ask him out but i keep denying it then she is also the best shopping buddy ever seance we both like the same style its supper fun because we like going to the same stores witch means going to hot topic for hours. and spending a lot of money. but inventively she stills all of my cloths witch means i have lots of things missing. speaking of that every time she comes over the only thing she brings is herself and the clothes on her back witch most likely means that l have to give her outfits but i love her so i don't mind at all it just means that we get to have more shopping trips at the mall.but ever sense  my dad left and us not having money to spare means that we don't get to go that  often anymore. but we still find other ways lo have fun like go to the skate park behind are house with Colby but one thing never challenge  me with doing tricks on the board because i'm the best and i will defeat you. but its still fun to go because that means that I can teach other people how to do tricks. I cant afford to loose her ever no matter what!and  even tough I jut meet Colby last year in school. he still makes a giant in pact in my life he helps me with boys and homework even though i am in love with that little boy that makes me crazy like i can be free. but knowing him and knowing what he likes he would never go for a girl like me its just not possible but i love to day dream and think about us being a power couple. but destiny like you said he does not like you like that he only likes you like a best friend maybe even a sister nothing more. we are just better of being friends and that's okay with me because sometimes we need a friend more than relationships that is why i have never told him because it might just ruin everything and i cant loose him two. it should be my stupid father here right now not my mother he will pay for what he did and what he is doing to are family, we were  doing grate before the head in his pants started deciding his life!)

doctor- destiny? (she said when walking my way smiling) 

ME-yes is she okay?(as I was standing up to meet home eye level)  

doctor- yes she is, she just got out of surgery you are able to see her she is in room 213.

ME-oh my god thank you so much!

And with that i was running to see my mother with a smile on my face with the thoughts going thru my head in the waiting room was just in my head that she will be okay and we will be home soon. running down the halls and stares as fast as i can my legs started to hurt but i did not care at all all i wanted to do was to get to her i finally got there my legs were like jelly when i was walking thru the door but it was all worth it when i see my beautiful mother laying there like nothing even happened. 

ME- mom are you okay how are you? 

MOM- my ribs hurt but i will be fine.have you been here the whole time? 

ME- of course I did why wouldn't I? i would never leave you in a time like this.

MOM- thank you destiny! but where are the boys?

ME- when you got unconscious. well aunt abbey got there and watched after them.

MOM- no i don't remember any oh that after your father Andy punching me i just blacked out. 

ME- mom don't worry i have a plan trust me! 

A.N thank you so much for reading! how did you like it? please remember this does not relate to my life till next time~DESTINY.P