letters to him || h.s. (discontinued)

#9 September 29, 2011

Dear him,

I'm still not over what happened 2 days ago. Were you about to kiss me? So many questions are floating around my head. You ignored me for 2 days straight and it really hurts. I thought you wanted to be friends. It was lunch break and I was about to go to the comfort room to eat my lunch since no one wants to sit with me when someone grabbed my wrist. I was startled and surprised to see you. I blinked rapidly and I was nervous.

"Wanna eat lunch with me?" You asked me and I was shocked by your question. I gulped and nodded quickly. I'm sure I looked desperate but I really didn't care because for the first time, you actually wanted to eat lunch with me. At first, I thought I was just imagining things but the pain I felt when I kept pinching my arm told me otherwise.

People were surprised to see us together and some girls were jealous and were whispering to one another. Is this what it feels like to be with you in public? It feels so great. I feel alive.

We talked about random things and for the first time, I saw you smile and heard you laugh and it was because of me. I was smiling like an idiot the whole time and I was really happy. I learned a lot about you and I felt honored that you trust me. You told me that I was beautiful and you were sorry for treating me like shit for the past few days and I forgave you because I can tell how sincere you were. This day just keeps getting better and better. My smile grew even wider if that was even possible.

Thank you so much for today, Harry. You made me feel so special and I will never forget this day. You just asked me to eat lunch with you and YOU CALLED ME BEAUTIFUL. I can't stop thinking about it. It keeps replaying in my head. For the first time in how many years, I fell asleep with a smile on my face.

E.C.