Just a Hopeless Crush

chapter 2

   when I eventually got home after sitting in my car awhile, thinking about the disaster that was going to go down the next night, duckie had left at least 10 messages for me.

   I called him back, not really knowing what to expect, all of his messages where just him telling me to call back. but comes to find out, he just wanted to know what steff had to say. I told him about the party and asked what I should do.

   "claire, babes, you gotta go! come on, it would be fun. I haven't heard of you going to a party since sophomore year. you need to go and get wasted, have a little action with some richie, then go home and sleep your ass off. like the good ole times."

    when I got to school the next day duckie was waiting where I park. I hopped out my car and ran over to him, he lifted me up and twirled me around. then he slung his arm over my shoulder and we walked into school, this is something we do everyday because we don't really get to see each other at school due to our different schedules.

   "so ducks, I listened to your advice and I'm gonna go to steff's party tonight."

     he looked at me with a big told-you-so smile.

   "I knew you would go! you haven't had fun like that in over a year, you're too worried about your grades!"

   I rolled my eyes, we always end up in this conversation over and over again. the bell rings, cutting off my thoughts and what I was going to respond. duckie kisses my cheek than ran to the other side of school to his home room class, while I laugh at him pushing  people out of his way.

   I close my locker, spinning on my heel to head in the direction of my home room class.

     skip to lunch and I always end up sitting with the so called 'richies'. this consists of blane, steff's best friend and andie's boyfriend as of now; benny the whore; travis, who isn't all that bad and I've also learned he fancy likes me; and steff.

   this happens everyday, I get pulled by travis to go sit with them because steff says that I should because our families are all the same rank. I just brush the comment off and eat my salad, not really talking to anyone except the occasional small talk with travis. but every time I look up, steff is always staring at me. even though benny the whore is all over him.

   "hey steff, baby, I can't wait till that party at your house tonight."

   as benny said that I break my eye contact with steff, realizing they were a thing and once again realizing that he's just a hopeless crush.

     "benny, you really are a whore, aren't you?"
  
   my jaw drops at what steff says. benny takes it as him 'talking dirty' or some gross shit like that. everyone else at the table knows steff meant it. so when benny gets up to go talk to her friends, blane starts with the questions.

   "steff, what was that about? I mean, we all know she's a whore, but we don't say it to her face! wait, is something wrong with you two?"

steff just rolls his eyes, then they land on me. I hold his gaze, not knowing what else to do.

   "blane, no need to freak over it, I've just been getting tired of her always nagging as if we were actually dating. I don't want her, I got my eyes on someone else."

   the three of us looked at steff shocked, as he just sat there and continued to stare at me. but before anyone could say anything, the bell rang signaling that lung was over.

   steff got up and left, but not before winking at me. my jaw was all the way down now! I actually don't believe what just happened.

   I hurt and gather my stuff before blane or travis gets to ask any questions. I hurry out of the lunch room and go on to finish the school day.

   after my last period, I walk out of school, letting out a big sigh. the first thing I see is duckie running over to me, frantically wheezing from running from wherever he came from. when he finally reaches me he hunched over unable to talk, out of breath.

   "oh my gosh ducks, what's the matter!"

   he holds up one finger before he stands straight and says something about that girl andie before giving me a pleading look. this has happened before, many times.

   "ducks, go on, get the girl of your dreams! you don't need to ask me permission to see her! go on, go you fool!"

   he smiles, kisses my cheek, then runs off to another place while I shake my head, smiling while watching him run to andie.

     "your friend there is really weird, you know that baby?"

   I already know who spoke from behind me before even turning around, the only person who calls me that name is duckie and steff.

   "hey to you too steff."

   I turn and smile, then walk to my car. I hear steff light his cigarette, then take a long drag, following me to my car. when I get the trunk to put my bag in, I still feel steff's presence behind me.

     "so baby, came to tell you that I plan on seeing you at my party tonight, wouldn't want you to forget and leave me all lonely now would you?"

   I feel him get closer to me, my back still facing him as freeze after putting my bag down.

   "you would have benny, steff. you always I have benny."

   I mutter the last part, hoping he didn't hear. he puts on hand on my waist and spins me to face him. unprepared, I slightly stumble into steff. one of my hands on his chest to stop from completely falling on him.

   "baby, benny is a whore. I dropped her a long time ago, you don't have to worry about her anymore."

   I'm confused for a second, wondering how he somehow knew that I was always jealous of her. wait, I don't want to be just some 'easy girl'. steff is gonna have to work for me, if he even wants me that is.

  "who's says Im worried about her steff? where is all this coming from, huh? you've always talked to me at my car everyday after school since the sophomore year, why is that? what was that whole thing at lunch today? you're getting very confusing this week!"

   steff pulls me a little closer, now my both my hands are on his chest as one of his hands holds his cigarette from his mouth and the other presses me against him.

   "baby, you're so clueless."

   he leans in a little, rubbing our lips together the slightest bit. right when I think he is going to kiss me he pulls away, taking another long drag. 

     "show at my party and I'll answer all your questions baby."

   with that, he let's go of my waist and walks away to his car. what the hell just happened