I Fucking Love You

13- The Brett I Fell In Love With

I should leave him a letter. Telling him why I left, that I'll love him forever, that he's my one and only. I should write him a letter.

Dear Baby Boy,
It was clear that you no longer wanted me in your life or your house so, I went home. I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and that your the best boy any girl could ever ask for. I will forever love you, from the bottom of my heart. I will keep the necklace as a remembrance of my one and only. You. I fucking love you.
Love,
Whitney

I set the letter on his bed and tip toed downstairs. As I was about to step on the last step I heard a conversation.

"It wasn't her fault."

"She looked so helpless in the room."

"I know but, I just can't look at her tear stained eyes I just want to hold her and tell her everything's going to be okay. But, I just can't. I'll want to die knowing I put her in tears. This is not the first time I've done it either. I want her to know-"

I can't take this any more! I ran out the door with my suitcase rolling behind me.

Brett's point of view-

"I want her to know that I love her and that nothing will ever change that and I want her to know that I honestly couldn't live my life without her, it would just be unbearable. I want her to know that I miss read the situation. I want her to know that I want her to be number one in my life. She's like a drug. I just need her in my life. Whitney is a need, and a want. She's why I'm still trying in life. She's pushed me to go out and try." I rambled before running upstairs, to my room.

"Whitney?" I called out. No awnser.

No! No! No! No! No! She left!!!!! What have I done!!!!!

Is all I can think as I read the letter.

I ran to my car and sped all the way to my baby's house. I love her. Why did I say those things? I love her. I'll never let her go. Never.

I pulled into her driveway like a maniac. And I almost forgot to put the car in park before running through the front door.

Her room! I rushed upstairs to her room, to find her crying into a pillow. "Whitney, baby?" I whispered gently trying to stay calm.

She stopped crying, looked up, and wiped away her tears. She turned around and made eye contact with me. "Whitney, I should've believed you. I love you and I want you to come back." I smiled towards her, stepping slowly forwards, closer to her.

"For me?" I added, to test if that would help. "I did leave for you. Everything I do is all for you. I love you so much that I left your home because you didn't want me there. I just wanted to you be happy, that's all I've wanted from the beginning of this whole relationship. Do you not think that it was hard for me to just sit on your bed, clutching the necklace that you threw at me. The necklace you said you didn't want any more. The necklace, the last thing I have a boy I once loved. But, that's not you. His name was Brett. He was the sweetest person to ever walked the earth. He would kiss me randomly just to show his love. He would make love to me like no one else ever could. He would believe and love and care for me no matter what happens." She said. By this point tears are streaming down my face, to the point to where, I can't control the tears.

"But, your not the Brett I fell in love with. He loved me too." She cried.

"Whitney....... I do love you, I am the Brett you fell in love with." I whispered as I sat beside of her.

"No, your not. The Brett I fell in love with wouldn't think that I cheated on him, he wouldn't call me a slut, he wouldn't call me a dirty whore. You did. Your not the Brett I love. He is somewhere inside of you. But until he comes out..... I'm staying here. And your going home." She said standing up.

"No. I'm staying with you. Anywhere you are is where my home is. And I am the Brett you love. Don't leave me. Please. I can't bear life without you. Life is unbearable without you. I need you. I want you. Please." I pleaded standing up, in front of her.

"I need some space." She whispered.

"Ok." Is all I can reply before leaving.

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Whitney's point of view-

Unbearable. It's been five hours. I just can't do it anymore! I'm driving to Brett's house currently. I just can't anymore.

I pull up to his house and run up to the front door. I start banging on it loud and hard. Audrey awnsered the door. It's like she read my mind.... She moved out of the way and let me run up to Brett's room.

The door was wide open so, I just walked right in. He was laying on his bed, face down, crying. I laid down beside of him and cuddled up to his side. He turned to me and hugged me, crying harder, "I thought I would loose you forever." He cried out.

"Never in a million years." I whispered.