Reasons

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by Xaranghey

by Xaranghey

Reasons to laugh

Reasons to cry

Reasons to stand up and fight

Reasons to give up

Reasons to trust

Reasons to hide

Reasons to smile

Reasons to shed tears

Reasons to love

Reasons to get hurt

Everything has a reason

And you...

You are the reason why I'm living.

You

I used to live a happy life. I had everything I ever needed and I couldn't ask for more..

...Until that day came. That accident that turned my whole world upside down.

That day was supposed to be filled with happiness. We were supposed to be having fun. We were supposed to be celebrating.

But that day was filled with sorrow. My mom died on that exact day. What hurts more is that, that day was my birthday.

After that day, I started pushing everyone away. Even my own father. It's like I don't want to be involved with someone again. Because I'm scared. I'm scared that a day may come where they will just disappear. That they will just leave me, the way my mom did. And I know how it feels. It hurts a lot.

So, in order for me not to experience that kind of pain again, I decided not to be involved with other people. I didn't have friends. I moved to an apartment so far away from home and left my father to my relatives. I tried to be independent. I worked for my tuition fees and everything I needed.

I continued my life without anyone by my side.

Youngjae

When I was a kid, my relatives and friends always say that I am their 'sunshine'. They say, my smile is contagious. That I lift up their moods with just my presence.

They say, I make them feel happy whenever they're sad. That I make them feel loved. Maybe because that's what makes me me.

But the sun has problems, too. How could the sun send it's light to others if it is blocked by a cloud of troubles?

How could I continue being their sunshine if I am in this state?

Thankyou very much TaeKE_myHeartue for the very nice cover💜💜💜
Saranghae~