to the girl i love

7/14/18

babydoll,
        i read my old diary that i had to keep for counseling and i saw this line in it that said "my cousin calls me ugly, stupid, fat, and gay; but i'm straight." that was written on 9/9/16. if only 2016 me knew.
        then, i thought about all of the things i would tell 2016 me if i could go back. i would tell her that there will be a lot of guys that will break her heart and they won't even feel bad about it. i would tell her to just wait until this girl with a beautiful personality comes along. i would tell her to become her best friend. i would tell her to never let her go. i would tell her that this girl is going to make you feel things no guy ever has. i would tell her that when she's with her, she will feel like she is on told of the world.
        i would tell her to love you. because you are one of a kind and you are something so precious that letting you go would be foolish.
        i just hope she would listen. because, now, i am the luckiest girl alive to be able to call you mine (even though we aren't officially together, but like...we are.).

love,
          em