Disclaimer:This was when I had depression and anxiety in sixth grade (I'm going into ninth) and it was a very hard time and this is me talking about how I felt during that time period of my life.
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If tears leaves scars
How would it feel
It's too complicated
Set it free
Please save me
Before I perish
Can't decide to
Live or die
Why not kill me
I'm a waste of space
Help me escape
From this awful place
Every time I'm around you
My heart feels like concrete
And I've turned into a statue
It makes me feel dead and
Wanting to wither away from this sinful place
But you've become my fear,
My anger, my love
I can't wish anything else
But to be with you
Sometimes I can't leave you
There's a force between us
It keeps pulling us together
Every time I try to pull away
It pulls and pushes us together
Harder and harder
My migraines hurt when I wake up
But fall asleep with anxiety and depression
Nobody understands how much it hurts
Nobody understands what it feels like to
Wake up with such pain like stabbing knives
Into your body and some days you just want
To die
Every time I try to do something right
It always goes wrong or down
Then I go even more down and
Sometimes I can't explain how it feels
It hurts so bad I feel like I wanna
Break down crying
Sometimes we don't get what we want
My mom always said to me
She was correct I can't wish away
The depression and anxiety away
My mom said that it's with not making
That many friends at school
I said no no it's not it's from
A girl I trusted I was idiotic for trusting her
She cursed and threatened me
With ever ounce of her being
I hated her but apart of me
Was in love I'm glad I never
Listened to that part of me
