Hold me tight. || J.JK

일: 토마토가 필요해!

Korean Hangeul- 일: 토마토가 필요해!
Romanization- il: tomatoga pil-yohae!
Translation- one: i need tomatoes!

Seohyun's pov

It's so empty here. The only thing left is the 2 family pictures against the big white wall next to the staircase. I slowly trail my fingers feeling the frame of the picture as old memories play in my head. My parents and i sitting on grass just laughing having the greatest time in the world.

"I miss them so much halmoni." A tear left my eyes as i look at my grandmother.

Both my parents died.

How, you want to know how?

My mom took an overdose.

And my father died due stress.

Very common one right?

Just the usual 'ohmy gosh Seohyun I'm sorry for your loss.' Then after a week they forget everything. People at my old school begin pity me and feel sorry for me. But me on the other hand I'm acting like I don't care. I may look cold and talk cold but i am a warm person if you'll eventually know me.

The fact that my closest friends left me behind hurts too. But i have my halmoni. She has trying to help me even though i would always deny her love. It's not because I don't love her. It's because I don't like if people pity me. But i'm better now i did it all myself. I moved in with my halmoni after the incident. At first I couldn't sleep I would have these crazy nightmares about my parents. But they stopped after a month. I had a choice to live with my aunt and uncle but that would mean that i would move to Japan.

No thanks, that's the last thing i would want.

Step by step i slowly get off the stairs. Walking towards the front door giving my old house one last look. There goes my childhood memories. I feel so hurt but i do feel somewhat relieved at the thought of finally letting go.

"Gwenchana my child, I miss them too." My halmoni puts her hand on my shoulder.

The feeling of my grandmother's touch made me want to sink in and cry. But getting slowly back to reality i hide my feelings behind my big wall inside of me wiping my tears away. Because that's all i can do. I don't like showing my feelings. My weak side.

"I'm okay, I'm in peace halmoni really."

I suddenly close the door with force knowing that I won't come back. A big lump was forming in my throat. I felt like a magnet was pulling me back to the house. It hurts me but I've got to let it go...

"let's go home." I turn around and hold my halmoni's hand leading her to my car.

As we both buckled in i started driving out of my old neighborhood. After the long 2 hour drive we finally arrived home.

I park (Jimin) my car at my usual spot and get out.

As i turn around i see my grandmother already standing beside the door.

"What never seen an old lady being so fast." My grandmother jokes

I chuckle remembering that my 76 year old grandmother has the legs of a 11 year old when it comes to her house.

As i get in the first place i go is to my room just checking out that everything is okay. Jumping on my bed then looking around i nod approvingly. It's not that someone would rob our house and steal something from my new room. But it's the only place on earth were i can find peace. I walk downstairs to the fridge getting as many snacks in my small hands.