Shanel

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 “Life will put many red lights in front of you, but sometimes we must push on the gas and trust god.” – Kendrick Lamar

Flashback 1 year ago

I'm sorry Erica but I just can't do this anymore I love you and all but I just can't do this we've been married 10 years & I've realized I'm the only one putting in love & work into this marriage, I heard my dad talking across the hall

Baby no please don't do this to me I need you I love you please we can go see a counselor baby I can't lose you baby, I heard my mother's faint cry which made me shed a tear

I'm sorry Erica I love you but I can't, ny dad said shaking his head picking up his suitcases walking into my room, Now listen to me babygirl I promise when I make enough money & get back on my feet I will be back to get you babygirl now I want you to do good in school & stay outta trouble do you hear me, he said wiping away one of my tears

Yes sir I hear you, I said with my head down

Ok babygirl I love you forever & always I'll always call to check on you & remember what i said was a promise I will be back to get you I love you Shanel, he said hugging me as he kissed my forehead & left

I love you daddy, I yelled from upstairs

I love you too babygirl, he said as he took one last look at the house & left

~Flashback over~

~Shanel~

Wake your muthafucking ass up bitch & get ready for school so I won't have to see your black ass today, I heard the devil I call my mom yelled from the other side of the door

Yes ma'am, I yelled back

As you can see I go through this everyday on a daily basis I once lived a wonderful life my mother loved me dearly but ever since my dad divorced her she just went downhill she started doing things I never thought my mother would do as in doing drugs, sleeping with different man, & even getting man to have sex with me for money it was horrible & I would never thought in all my years of living I would have to go through anything like what I'm going through right now

I got out of bed and went into to the bathroom to take a shower after I was done I brushed my teeth & straighten my long thick hair after I finished that I went to my closet to find something school so I decided on a Polo Jacket, Blue Jeans, & some black vans I grabbed my backpack & headed downstairs to see my mom on the couch layed up with some random man.