I'm Not Yours

14. Awake To Face Nightmare

Jinyoung's POV

I looked at two bodies who laid on hospital bed. Jaebum hyung had has his kidney transplant surgery and two my beloved person were sleeping peacefully. I look at Jaebum hyung, then to Mark hyung. I admitted that I love both of them, I want to have both. am I too greedy?

My hand gripped on two papers. One is my divorce paper with Jaebum hyung and the other one is my marriage registration that has my sign and Mark's. I sighed roughly to imagine my life without Jaebum hyung. My heart ached to see him hurt because of me, but it will be much more terrible when I don't have him in my life. Will Jaebum hyung fogive me?

I looked at Mark, I didn't understand him at all. Why did he love me so much while our meeting was really short back then. We only dated for a while, and I couldn't believe if he really loves me. Was he that naïve? Come on, do you believe love at first sight and such thing? But, I did feel strange when he decided to leave me back then. I couldn't deny that I missed him. And now that I am his husband, I think it will not that bad. Right?

After studying Mark's face for a while, I decided to sit near Jaebum hyung. I really felt guilty for what I've done to him, destroying his life and leaving him when he was in the deepest darkness of his life. But, this is the best way to save him. I would rather crash our happiness than letting him die. I looked at his growing subtle and I caressed his cheek lovingly. I held his cool hand, tears escaping my eyes as I looked at his soulless body.

"Jaebum hyung.... I'm sorry..." I mumbled that words endlessly.

Mark's POV

I heard a sniff, I tried to open my eyes and it was white. I blinked my eyes and my vision started to back. I could see white ceiling and lamps above. I titled my head to my right side to see someone sobbing in his sleep. Right, I saw Jinyoung sleep while burying his face towards Jaebum's knuckles. I heard him mumbled 'sorry' in his sleep. I smiled bitterly to the scene before me. I looked at the papers placed on the small table beside Jaebum's bed and I could see those are his divorce paper and our marriage registration. I wonder why he hadn't submitted it already.

NOBODY'S POV

Jinyoung was stirred up by a rustled sound behind him. He rubbed his eyes cutely and stretching his arms widely. He felt his eyes swollen as he cried all night while sleeping besides his soon to be ex-husband. He sighed heavily when he remember that he was no longer Jaebum's husband. Jinyoung turned his head around to see Mark was sitting on the edge of his bed, half naked as a nurse was treating his stitched wound in his lower tummy. Mark looked at the awake Jinyoung then smiled sweetly at his newly husband.

"you awake, Jinyoungie..." Mark greeted his beloved husband who had his eyes on Mark's wound. Mark, who realized his husband didn't pay attention to him cleared his throat, made Jinyoung snapped from his train of thoughts. "what are you thinking about? Hubby?" Mark asked, the nurse who cleaned mark's wound frowned his brows, Jinyoung too.

"hubby?" Jinyoung asked innocently, while Mark asked the nurse to leave for a while, leaving the unfinished treatment too.

"why? Do you hate that name? or do you prefer sweetheart? Honey? Or princess?" Mark teased his husband, made Jinyoung groaned in annoyance. Mark patted his bed, signaling Jinyoung to sit beside him. Jinyoung took the sign and do as Mark asked.

"don't be childish, Mark...just call me Jinyoung. It's enough." Jinyoung rolled his eyes. Mark giggled.

"why? Didn't Jaebum called you with pet names too? don't say that he wasn't that romantic Jinyoung-ah..." Mark pretended to be shocked, but Jinyoung wasn't buying his Joke. His expression changed into sad, made Mark regretting his cheap joke.