I have just started school and something does not feel right to me it’s like I’m having bursts of smartness or something like that but it confuses me so much. The one thing that is SO confusing is the fact that I used to be the best football player and the SMARTNESS GUY IN SCHOOL. And I still don’t get it so last night I asked my mom about it and she said that it is “coz you have been away for so long”
HOW DOES THAT WORK! I’m not alienated BUT WHAT IF I AM! What am I going to do this is so scary even for well ME! What do I do AHHHHHHHHH! What was that ok now I’m really petrified SO WHAT should I DO!
I go to school everyday and stare at the pages the teacher puts in front of me. At first the letters that make up words look like mcflabblebitix but then, as I concentrate on them suddenly they aren’t just letters they are sentences – questions and the answer jumps to the front of my mind. I see the answer on the paper and can’t even remember writing it!
After the football accident, the concussion, the time in hospital, the time off school everything is different. I have never been a smart guy before – just a sports jock and now all of a sudden I’m head of the club.
My friends don’t want to be my friends anymore, the nerds don’t like me (I guess I was a bit of a bully to them before) the only person who even talks to me is a little girl called Lucy. She is really something special.
And she never lets me fall. Which is special in a big, big way. And she also helps lots because she has been through the same as me like being bullied, not defending but this last reason changes all others we try to run and hide I try to but then I notice there is no use. So we cope well at least try to seining as we end up looking like that stupid, kid next door and by the way that, is not a nice feeling. Specially the fact that it’s not true at all.
Lucy could think I’m being mean to her but I’m doing the complete opposite of that. Today Lucy was not at school and I was bullied more than ever.
I mean I’m not looking for attention in fact that’s what most victims try not to do.
