Remember when we first became fellows?We were both so eager to get onto the heli.When I was dropped from heli duty on the first day and you took over, I thought you would shove my failure in my face.
But you didn't.
Shiraishi Megumi felt like a failure. And that is not common in her everyday life before this. Her entire life, she aced through her studies, her duties, never messing up so badly as she did on site.
The crushing feeling, she felt for not being able to do as good as she and the rest of the staff have expected her to be, not sitting well with her.
And to think, if it wasn't for Aizawa's skills, confidence and proficiency the patient would have lost their life. And it would be her fault. It had been a few days after that incident where she froze and did nothing to help treating the patient and since then she had been faking her smiles in front of the other fellows.
Having people feeling bad or pitying her situation is not something she can handle right now. She was already trying hard to not break and having people sympathize over her is not going to give any benefits at all.
So, there she was. Hiding in the equipment store during lunch break. It had only been a few days she had been at Shohoku but her keen observation skills are still on point. There was nobody around in there during lunch break which makes it a great place for her to escape.
Or so she thought.
He came in so quietly that Megumi didn't even notice him at first. So when she finally saw him, she was surprised. And maybe a little bit embarrassed. Tears were still running down her chin. Her nose was runny and her hair was in a mess.
In short, it was definitely not a pretty sight.
He seems to not take notice of her dishevelled appearance and was focusing on finding some scalpels.
"How did you do it Aizawa? Weren't you afraid?" Megumi did not expect that she was able to voice those questions out but the calming presence of Aizawa allowed her to speak up her mind.
"I just froze. The patient was waiting for me to save him. He was on the verge of death and he would be gone if it wasn't for Kuroda-sensei. You should have been chosen for the heli duty in the first place. Not me."
The male fellow allowed Shiraishi to finish, not interrupting the young women as she continues ranting in frustration.
"I was terrified. But excitement took that over." He paused as he looked to Shiraishi in the eye.
"You were chosen over me because you had what it takes. Kuroda-sensei saw your capability. That was why you were chosen. Stop doubting yourself. This was just a mistake out of many more to come. If you are going to give up just because of this, you are weaker than I originally thought you were."
His words are relatively harsh but it was thanks to them that Shiraishi Megumi regained her strength back.
"Thanks, Aizawa." She was sincere in thanking him.
"That doesn't mean I'm going to allow you to take my place on the heli so easily."
Shiraishi smiled. "I know."
Remember when I was the reason your mentor can never be the surgeon he was again? I thought you would hate me.
But you didn't.
They were all in the room. The fellows, their director, the flight nurse and the amazing surgeon that had lost everything.
Shiraishi was hanging her head down low. She can't face him. After what she had done, how can she?
