KennyToni and I sat on the couch waiting on Tamar to drop the girls off. Coby will be back tomorrow and then we can discuss him staying with us forever.
I flipped the channel and saw Tracey on some talk show. I left it on to see what type of shit was gonna spill out of her mouth this time.
"Tell me what caused this?" Barbara Walters asked.
"Well Kenny and I were just friends and then we became more. Until his wife caught us and by that time I was pregnant. I came over to tell him the news and he spazzed out." She said using a napkin to wipe her fake tears.
"I'm so sorry."
She shook her head, "It's not his fault, he's just stressed out. His children are running rampant, he's been taking care of some other kid that he barely knows and his wife is to blame for all of his problems like his label having issues getting artists and so much more."
"Sounds like you two were close." Barbara concluded.
"He's vented to me many times that's how we became lovers. I was always there for him."
I grimaced,"That's bullshit! We kissed that's it." I said as if they could hear me. I felt eyes on me and I was met with Toni's glare."What?"
"Did you really say that stuff?" She asked. I couldn't lie, I did talk about some things with Tracey.
"Toni-"
She stood up, "You really blame me for all your issues?"
"Damn it Tone!!!" I said kicking the table. She jumped and backed away from me. I walk closer to her with pleading eyes, "Can't you see what she's doing?!"
She said nothing as she hit a wall. Was she actually afraid of me right now?
I sighed, "I'm sorry."
"What else do you blame me for Ken?" She asked.
"Why are we even-"
"WHAT ElSE?"
"EVERYTHING!!" I yelled before I could stop myself, "Everything is always about you. It's been that way since we were young. I loved you so I didn't care but damn. It gets tiring." I admitted.
There was a brief moment of silence before she spoke, "I got married in a courthouse, no big wedding, my family wasn't there, no beautiful church, but a courthouse because you wanted to. I turned down a scholarship and moved to Atlanta for you."
Were we really playing tit for tat right now?
I scoffed, "What about all the stuff I've done for you? I put my career on the line testifying in court for you. I stopped talking to my mother for a week because I was trying to defend you. I became a father at 18 because you wanted to play super hero." I said making her slightly gasp.
"Ken-"
"No, I didn't even want kids but I came around. Now that I actually want another one, your selfish ass won't give me one. Why? Who knows! I guess you can go down your list of selfish ass reasons and find the answer." I finished.
A tear slipped from her eye but she quickly wiped it before looking behind me. The look on her face made me turn around. "Girls..." I said seeing the hurt in all of their eyes.
Mila ran upstairs before the girls ran behind her. Toni went after them as I cursed under my breath. I grabbed my keys and left.
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