Poetry and Story Collection | Eleutheromania

To love or To live

I had to choose
to love or to live
and I chose to love
because I was selfish.

I thought if I chose to love
I would want to live
but
I was wrong.

I realized
if I had chosen to live
it would've taught me
to love the little things.

like the way she smiles
or the he laughs
or the way
we forget the world.

but we are selfish
and I chose to love
and I realized what
the fuss of being in love causes.

instead it did
the opposite to me
by choosing to love
I no longer felt the obligation

To live.

it turned me into
the person I thought
i'd never wanted
to become.

I saw the jealous
grasp that took
ahold of so many
I saw:

A caged animal.

because we are not
so different
I see the same terror
I see the same anger.

But inside they are
scared
and they only attack
what they fear.

which makes them look vicious
but we never know
what's going on
in their mind.

I lusted
I sinned
I lied
and I broke.

I turned into
something I promised
I'd never become
and I lost.

I betrayed my family
I betrayed my friends
I betrayed you
And most of all

I betrayed myself.

so if you
are given
the choice
to love or to live.

Choose To Live.