because being dead would be easier"
but what if it's not
what if it's harder to be dead
to lay unconscious and not be able to comprehend the answer to all those questions
"what comes after?"
remorse
regret
rethink it
rethink the laying in bed until 5 pm as a way of self care instead of just a depression nap
rethink it all
rethink the cuts on your arms as a symbol of life and living though the pain rather than battle wounds
because what if it's harder to be dead
to lay there
in darkness
and never know how that show ended
or what the new album sounded like
or how the life you didn't live could've turned around and handed you joy
you can lie to me all my want
but be honest with yourself
do you really want to die
do you really want to fade into the air and be just a "happy memory" in everyone else's minds
do you really want to die an unfinished painting
a cliffhanger
do you really want to die and never know how your live could've been if you'd have lived it to the end?
do you really want to throw a tantrum and drown in your own tears rather than hold you smile in place and march on like the goddamn warrior you are and fight off this darkness until all you see is rainbows covering up dark clouds
just because your life's falling apart right now doesn't mean that you have to lose the desire to live it forever.
YOU ARE READING
don't kill yourself today
Poetrya short lil free verse poem im not that proud of but felt the need to ask this question: "what if death is harder?"
