Lonely | BTS x Blackpink

7 | late night mistake

~Taehyung~
3 am
It's late at night, or early morning, which ever you want to call it. I have no clue why the heck I'm awake but my body is not agreeing with it. I slug my way over to the dim lit kitchen and open the fridge as a natural instinct. Pushing away all of the leftovers I find a can of beer. My foggy vision seemed to have clouded my thoughts as well and instinctively I grabbed it and cracked it open.
I let out a sigh hoping that some of my stress would be released along with that huff of air. There was just too much going on. All day I have too keep on this cheery smile and cute little personality. And believe me, that's who I can be, but sometimes it feels so tiring and forced. It's almost like it's draining the life out of me but I know I need to keep it up to support the group, please the fans, and grow my career. However, I need a break. Something or someone to make me genuinely smile. I just want to naturally smile without feeling like it's my priority. On top of that my members have been caught up in the aspects of a possible romance. Sure, it sounds nice but can they really handle it ? I mean, Jimin is still in love with a girl he hasn't seen in years and the hyungs, well lets just say the competition over Jennie is tough. But the pair that is constantly on my mind are Jungkook and Lisa.
     The negative thinking really got my head pounding. Unknowingly I just kept on drinking more cans of beer. I thought that it was the only medicine to temporarily ease this mental pain.
Two hours past, and before I knew it I was completely trashed. Drunk and out of my mind. Bottles of cans surround me, and I truly looked like an alcoholic at that point. Unaware of my actions, I did something I'd probably end up regretting, drunk texting Lisa.